Updates

Whoo so I haven't posted in about two weeks, and well a lot has happened since that last post. How about I start with the fact that I am now 18???? 

AH!!!!

 I'm so happy.

And 

I finally heard from Mister!!!

We got to Skype last monday night

and every morning, except weekends, since.

I am a very happy MJ :)

Skype does hate me though....

And I'm staying on campus this summer!! 

Part of a scholarship I got is I have to stay on UTKs campus

ALL SUMMER. But Im not complaining, Im so excited for it!!!

What else? Hmm...Ohhh does anyone know anything about student loans?? 

If so Id appreciate help :)

More changes in the friendship garden

So lately I've decided that I'm tired of being the "maybe" friend. I'm tired of making someone a priority in my life and not having that returned. This girl and I, we'll call her Gingy. She's been what I had considered a best friend for a good 5 years now. The last couple of years we've gone in different social groups. I thought this would be okay. Well I guess I was wrong, because now she only calls on day that she is doing absolutely nothing, and when I ask to hang out she says her mother won't let her and I find out later that she's gone to hang out with other people. I would have no problem with this if she wouldn't call me the next week and wonder why I haven't answered her phone calls. Uhm HELLO. Ugh. I just dont' know if its time to let go of this friendship, or try to hold on to it. I'm leaining towards letting it go. I dont' need this in my life

100 Facts about me, Part 2

Alrighty then. Part 2 :)

26. I've always struggled with my weight. When I was six I decided I was too fat.

27. I'm not that excited about prom

28. I'm VP of my school's chapter of National Honor Society

29. I've dyed my hair twice. Red both times. And both times it faded very quickly.

30. I get frusturated very easily with certain people

31. It's taken me a week to do this

32. I turn 18 in 5 days

33. I highly doubt that anyone is reading this

34. I'm a worrier

35. I wear contacts

36. I love helping in the second grade

37. Mister knows my iPod passwords

38. I can be a huge hypocrite

39. I forgot to apply for housing

40. I would be perfectly okay with getting married tomorrow

41. I'm addicted to Facebook

42. I can type without looking

43. I'm afraid of math

44. I'm afraid of snakes

45. I love kids

46. I don't really know how to use my calculator

47. I'm really good at making up sentimental stuff for papers

48. I'm jealous a lot

49. I have an unnatural hate for skinny blonde preppy people

50. Idk how I'm going to think of 50 more

Finishing up a Meme

Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do? I cry, a lot. I mean who wouldn't get upset about this? I would probably hate myself for a while afterwards as well.

Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life. Applied for a job at McDonalds! Day

23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.

Taken more chances

Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)

Oh boy, Making a playlist for someone....I'm not doing a letter that would take too long. How about a Title and Explanation? This is to Mister I guess. The Warrior Song Hard Corps- This song is the USMC. Point blank, I love the lyrics, they're good get you motivated lyrics, they're lyrics that I've always thought as classically Marine Corps. This is just a special song, the original is The Warrior Song, and its the military in general. Here's the link to both: http://thewarriorsong.com/video.html

Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.

I've thought about this a lot since I had my wreck back in October. I feel like I don't know my reason yet. For all intents and purposes I could have died then and I didn't. I don't know why I'm still here but I'm thankful that I am.

Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?

Yes. Freshman year, and the summer after. I honestly couldn't tell you why. I just felt overwhelmed and wanted it to be over.

Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?

I've been accepted to an amazing Nursing program. I'm not giving that up. And My Mister. He supports me no matter what. We'll figure something out.

Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

Honestly as much as I love children I would be ecstatic to find out I was pregnant. I would tell Mister first, and since I'm so young I would probably wait to talk to him before I told anyone else. If he wouldn't want it, then I can't tell you what would happen.

Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

My lack of filter when speaking. Why not? I insult people without even trying and that's not a good thing.

Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Dear MJ,

You are awesome. You love without restraint, and you don't give up on people. Sometimes that gets you hurt but you just get right back up and keep on going. You know lyrics to more songs than some radio DJ's. You have friends who live across the country and you love them just as much as the friends at home. You miss your Mister, but you only cry when you need to. You don't wallow too often in hurt. You remember things. You brush your teeth for 5 minutes every morning and it shows. Sometimes you share too much but that's what makes people feel close to you. Don't ever stop that. Just learn to filter.

FINALLY

Finally finally finally I heard from him!!!!!!!!! I am over the moon right now. But of course I was in the shower the two minutes he was online...Augh. But I guess that's just my luck. I'm not complaining though. I am so beyond happy. And my 18th birthday is in EXACTLY TWO WEEKS. You can imagine my level of excitement! Thu gs are shaping up around here :)

I dare ya Punk

Back in the days when we were young...when everything was like a loaded gun... Yess I'm in that mood today. I'm in the lose myself in the good ol Puddle of Mudd mood, some Rob Zombie gets thrown in there, I won't mind :) Oh yes...Dragula :)

Haha so I think today is going to be an introspective, little known fact kind of day.

My freshman year I had a punk stage. There. I said it. It's out. I wore all black shirts, blue jeans, and Vans. I love my Vans. They were straight laced, and I can't even skate. I wore dark blue eye make up, heavy liner, and hadn't yet discovered mascara,

THANK GOD.

If I didn't have all of the make up on, I didn't have any on. My hair was long, natural, sometimes it wasn't even brushed. It was just too curly for me to do anything with and it look good. Of course the teachers still liked me, but they were wary of me. My friends were almost all guys. And my best friend? That was a fellow punk girl named E. E and I were best friends, and she just so happened to date Mr's best friend. So it was a match made in Heaven. I listened to some head bangin music, stuff that I don't even like now, much less then. I got into some weird habits, such as not eating, like

uhm

HELLO ITS NECESSARY FOR SURVIVAL RETARD.

And dropped about twenty pounds. That's the only thing I liked about that stage in my life. That and Mr. He was my little punk buddy, wore black beanies, listened to the same stuff as me, only harder rock versions. He called me a punk and I loved it. Really, Rob Zombie brought us together. I was the random girl who he noticed listenin to some hard stuff. Anywho, yeah. That was me, if you can imagine it...sometimes I still have a hard time believing it!