Ohh my Lord. My Bear and I have been together for two years now...this is insane to me. I look at my posts from right after we got together...and ohh man
omgeez so much has happened lately...i dont even know where to start!!!! Okay, well lets start with the fact that me and my ex from freshman year are dating again...awesomeness right? It's like a good but then a bad thing at the same time...
Good: love him dearly and am seriously happy; he's amazing; i feel like i don't have to be anything i'm not with him; comfortable together because we dated for 9 months before; feels right after all the crap that happened between us, like a new new beginning!
Bad:He's in the Marines, and is leaving on Monday for training and will be gone for forever...but hey gotta get used to it right?
I know that I have GOT to get used to this, because its gonna be his life, and if I wanna be a part of it then I'd better suck it up and move on, you know? Plus when I do get to see him it'll be ten times better because we know that we only have a limited amount of time together so thats another good thing. omgeez...well thats my blogpost for this time, talk to you laters!
First off, how horrid is my grammar/diction?? Ahh lol. I can't believe I ever thought Camp Geiger and Fort Sill were hard. Pfft. If only I knew what was to come...
Bear and I have had such a hard year since our first anniversary. And the hard stuff didn't even happen until after his deployment. He won't get to come home for Christmas, no money so he's going to his best friend's for Christmas. My heart hurts to have him away on Christmas, but there's nothin I can do about it. All I can say is I love him more today than I did one year ago. And I never thought that would be possible! He doesn't know when he will be home again, and that kills me. I know I should be used to this, it HAS been two years. But I'm not. Maybe next year, the thought that he'll have less than a year left will make this easier :))
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Alright this may be super long but it's my ball weekend :)
Wednesday- Traveled all damn day. At my last lay over before Vegas in LAX and Bear calls from his friend's phone asking all this random information about my flights and such and I'm like Why...and he tries to be evasive at least :p So he surprised me and picked me up from the air port :)) The first thing he does is grab me and we spin ♥ He takes me to his friend and is like "This is MJ. I'm not going crazy anymore" *SIGH*
Thursday- We got up and checked out of the hotel and the RIO let us check in earlier than we expected so we napped. All day. Lmao. We got up and I got ready and we're sitting there waiting for a good time to go down and he just keeps looking at me. I was like "What?!" And he goes "Nothin, can't I just look at you?" I almost started sobbing right then and there. We get down there and meet up with this friends, one goes "There she is!!" And runs up to me like a puppy dog lol. Everyone "heard so much about you!!" I'm sure ya'll knows how that feels, I felt so special. We ate and left, because Bear got sick. He almost passed out and I was literally holding one arm and had one around his waist, rules be damned. He was better after we ate though. We went out on the strip with his friends and it was amazing.
Friday and Saturday we just together as much as possible. Went to some tourist attractions, him and his buddy shot at a gun shop. It was a great weekend. When he dropped me off I wanted to die. He was still sick and it killed me to leave him like that :( But his friend is sending me updates and keeping me informed. He promised to take care of Bear for me ♥
I haven't gotten to talk to him yet, his phone won't be back on until Tuesday. But honestly the first day sucks!!!!!
PS I LOVE VEGAS :)
Posted by MJ at 8:20 PM
Thursday, November 3, 2011
I'm leaving for Vegas in exactly 6 days!!!!! I have been counting down from 135 days so six is soooooo close I can't stand it! I'm staying with Bear from the 9-12 my flight leaves Vegas at 1 am on the 13 :( I'm so super excited to get to see him! He's been in the field for almost 3 weeks now, he finally comes back tomorrow, and I cannot wait to just get to talk to him again. So much has happened!
EEk I hope he likes it, I also dyed my hair back dark for the ball, the other color had faded waaaay too much to even look decent. But anywho I gotta get to Chemistry!