Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Days 9-12

Day 9 Someone you didn't want to let go but just drifted.

My friend Heather. She's a year ahead of me, so she graduated last year, she also had the prettiest sweetest baby ever Olivia miday through her senior year. She is honestly one of my hero's. Idk how she does it. I still love her to death but things just didn't work and we drifted over the summer. It hurts not talking to her as much as I used to.

Also my friend Brooke. She also had a baby, but she got pregnant at the end of sophomore year, so she was homeschooled Junior year and she has already graduated and started college this year. Soo not only am I super jealous I'm also super proud of her. We recently started texting, so we're kind a back in touch, and I realize how much I missed her. She literally saved me sophomore year

Day 10 Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn't know.

I can honestly say no one. I believe that everyone is put in your life for a reason, and sometimes they're there for a little while or a long while, but no matter what the time they were there to teach you a lesson or to help you get through something. I'm thankful for all the people who have been in my life. I like to believe that everyone has taught me something, or made me realize something about myself. Sure some have been enemies, but isn't an enemy just someone who is in more need of our love than we realize?

Day 11 Something people seem to compliment you on

Well at work people always talk about my eyes. I mean EVERYONE. Especially random drive thru customers. Mister tends to like them too :)

People also say I look diff outside work? Especially with my hair down? Is that a compliment?

Day 12 Something you never get compliments on

My honesty!! Lol

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

10 Months

Holy cow as of yesterday its been 10 wonderful, terrifying months. I can't belive it!

Day 8 Someone who has made your life hell or treated you like shit

Every bully from the age of 5-now...currently former friends...the USMC...

Monday, September 27, 2010


Stacy from tagged me!! I'm not gonna tag, but if you want to answer the questions take it!! :))
1. Where do you picture yourself in 5 years?
Hope fully I'm almost done with college, I've heard that nursing can take up to 5 and 6 years. And from what I've figured out it may take that long for me and Mr. to get married
2. What would you do if you won the lottery?
Right now pay off all my family's bills and especially the mortgage!! I would definitely buy a plane ticket to California and buy a condo there :)
3. What is your favorite season?
Fall! The leaves, the weather isn't too hot or too cold, and I just love it. It's cuddling weather
4. What is your favorite sport, if any?
Football to watch!! But UT has sucked recently...we need another 1998!
5. Do you have any pets?
A big chocolate lab named Clifford!
6. Where is one place you hope to go in your lifetime?
Okinawa, Scotland, Ireland, France, Oh wait, just one??
7. Can you describe your dream home?
Hara (sp?) from Gone With The Wind
8. Do you have any blogging secrets or tips to share?
Don't force a post, if you do it won't sound right!! And if you want comments then you MUST comment on other blogs

Day 7 Someone who has made your life worth living for

Well I have a couple.

1)My baby sister. Hands down, she is the one person who I always try to be a better person for. I try to get good grades, not act like a complete brat, and everything in between for the girl. She's 10 now and she's just growing up so freaking fast.

2) Of course Mister. For the simple fact that even though every now and then he kills me there are more times when he makes me happy I woke up that morning.

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Day 6 Something you hope you never have to do

Say goodbye. That's all I can say.

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Day 5 Something You Hope to Do in your Life

I hope that I help people. Really, I'm not even joking, all that I want to do with my life is to help. I want to be a nurse. I used to want to be a doctor, but I learned through my Papaw's long hospital stay that nobody remembers the doctors. It's the NURSE that comes to check on you, the NURSE that you talk to about your family, who gets to meet them. There's a stronger connection, and I think I need that to keep from being burned out in my career, if not I'll crave it and miss it.

And yes, I am the cheeseball that helps everyone and everything she sees. I pay for homeless people to eat, let people slide on change at work and make it up with my own money, and I have on occassion stopped to help a turtle. I don't know what it is, but when I see people or animals or anything that looks like it needs help I get this overwhelming urge to do SOMETHING that it takes me over. If I ignore it I will beat myself up over it for days after, or end up crying and going back. I know it sounds naive, and innocent to just want to help people, but I promise I'm not any of these things, I just choose to see they good in people, and it's the good I want to help. Everybody has a little bit of if in them, and it appeals to me.

What do YOU want to do?

Friday, September 24, 2010

Day 4 Something you have to forgive someone for

Hmm I really don't know the answer to this one, I mean, I don't make a habit of holding grudges if I can help it, although I can. And what's going on right now with former friends, well I have to take some of the blame for it, because I could have asked instead of facebook posted. BUT that's beside the story. I guess that I have some things that I still don't quite feel good about when I think of them, but they're not worth mentioning really. Sooo hmm...I don't really know.

Well if I had to say I would say that Mister's ex-friend "Trouble" still bothers me. NO, trouble is not his name but i don't wanna give him away either. He decided to call me when him and Miser were drunk one day and test the relationship, and well, it just wasn't good, I still have a little bit of anger and resentment over that.

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Day 3 Something I have to forgive myself for.

All of the times I get close to giving up. I'm the type of person who beats herself up over every little thing in a relationship, and I need to forgive myself for the times I 've thought "This is to hard, I can't do this." I feel like when I think this it transfers over into my relationship with him and he can feel that I think about this...weird I know. Even now thinking about it I feel bad. Has anyone else ever felt this way?

Monday, September 20, 2010

Days 1 and 2 combined

Something I hate about myself- Hmm well there would have to be 2, my double chin and my arms!! Both are way too large in my opinion...I do way too good a job covering them up in my pictures

Something I love about myself- again 2, my eyes and my teeth! By some freak accident I have decently white and straight teeth. And I always get compliments on my eyes, at work, and Mister has even remarked on them before ;)

Saturday, September 18, 2010

Something New and Yes, DETAILS!!!

I found this over at Writing Letters in My Scrubs, and I think that it's an amazing idea! I will start it tomorrow for sure!

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

And da da da daaaa...details!

He asked me on July 20th at 8 at night over the phone. Yes, I know, over the phone. Now, I know what some of ya'll are thinking, I would be too. Over the phone really? Wth??? But he won't be home until Christmas and I basically knew it was coming because
He sucks at keeping secrets, he had been dropping hints for the past month: I have a question for you when I come home and stuff like that. He was originally gonna do it when I graduate, bc he thought that was in December but then realized I graduate in May when he's deployed (MAKES ME WANNA CRY!!) so....he was just like well Icould just ask when I get home...but he decided to go ahead and do it.

"MJ I want to ask you something..."
MJ( thinking to herself :he's gonna do it over the phone? Ok...)"What?"
"Well depending on your answer it could be really bad or really good."
"MJ, I love you and want to spend the rest of my life with you (at this point I'm thinking,I knew it!) and I want to know will you marry me?"
MJ pauses for a few seconds "yeah! I mean, of course, Yeah, yes! Of course! You even have to ask? I thought it was implied by now!"

So that's how it happened, and yes, I am going to make him redo it when he comes home over Christmas, the whole get down on one knee bit and all! Bc right now I think of it like I'm not engaged, I'm "engaged" bc no ring and not in person...but then again he asked and I said yes so I guess that makes it official!

I was so stoked the whole week after, like lieterally could not believe didn't even suck! It turns out his Mama had known for literally MONTHS since like April. So these are my details :) Right now I'm so happy with my life, with the exception of some work situations...but like I said after stuff happens I'll have to spill all!

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Soo engaged!

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Oh my...

Thank you my loyal awesome amazing followers for not completely deserting me!!!! I haven't blogged in so long!! And...well there are a few reasons for it, I don't really know how to put into words what i'm feeling lately!

Mister is back, and has been for about a week, so that's a good thing...I guess. Don't get me wrong, I'm so super pumped to be able to talk to him again but I really just wish that he was HERE. There's so much going on right now in my life, college apps, personal statements..., that just having him here to go cuddle with would just make my world complete.

On top of that work is weird, that's all I can say at the moment, when stuff starts to happen I'll let ya'll know... :/

Speaking of, I need college help!! Do any of ya'll have any tips on writing personal statements?? I'm at such a loss, Having major writer's block!!

Saturday, September 4, 2010

4 DAYS!!

Yay!!! So since I last posted, I've gotten to talk to him twice! Silly boy didn't listen to me when I took ya'll's advice and told him to take his phone with him...ugh. So he's been using his friend's. And they're in the home stretch of training! I honestly didn't think I would be able to make it but I have, and boy am I proud of myself! Lol I'm working on reading everyone's blog, school has been super busy so I'm a lil behind, I may not comment (bc I don't know what to say lol i always have that problem!) But I will def be reading everything ya'll post! Oh and work? Works is just...*shudder* let's steer away from that lol.