So I seem to be in a funk. Yesterday I talked to Mister for the first time in a LONG time, well long to me anyways (4 days) I know, I'm pitiful, I'll die when he's deployed. But yeah, I tried to get some details about his day to day but that did not work out...I was like so what do you do all day? And he was like Artillery, and I was like omg i knew that...so I just gave up lol. I love him to death, and sometimes I can't believe how intuitive he is about me, but on days like yesterday all I can do is shake my head and laugh.
Anyways, yeah a funk. Idk what it is, I mean I'm losing weight (good), have an amazing bf (good), have wonderful family (good), getting senior pics done friday (good), and yet...with all the good things I can't stop focusing on the bad...and ironically I can't think of any bad right now. Heck, yeah I can, my boyfriend (the amazing one) is thousands of miles away and I can't stand it!!!
To top it off, if my civilian friends complain one more time about how they didn't get to see their guys for a night I'm gonna explode. I may cry, idk. But they just naturally assume I'll be like Oh I'm sorry...that sucks...when really I wanna be like OMG GROW UP IT'S ONLY ONE NIGHT TRY 6 MONTHS!! But I don't because I'm a good person, I'm a good person, I'm a good person...lol But I know I shouldn't complain, bc I know I'm like I miss him so bad all the time, and all that but...idk. I mean I hate to say it...but...idk
Lol I'm just confused and feelin a lil sad right now.
Monday, April 12, 2010
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Okay I found this on someone's blog, and it really touched a chord in me so I hope she won't mind me using it :)
I Am A Military Girlfriend
I am a military girlfriend. I hold no formal recognition with
the powers that be. I am at the bottom of the chain. I hold no
Military ID card, I am not a dependent or a parent. The man I
love may face unspeakable dangers, and I am at the mercy of those
who possess this recognition for news. I understand this and accept
this.
I am a military girlfriend. I have promised to be here for him upon
his return, no matter how long he is away. People may say I am
insane
for making such a commitment with no guarantees, but I hold onto our
promises and have faith that he will come home safe to me. I know full
well that my love for him fuels him in the worst of times.
I am a military girlfriend, there is no ring on my finger to symbolize
our commitment, though I love him no less for it. I hope every day that
he will be able call because a simple 30-second phone call can bring
the greatest spectrum of emotions smiling with tears in my eyes from
so much joy and pain. My relationship is based on a brief
communication where I love you and Im okay speaks more than
volumes
and gives me the strength to keep going.
I am a military girlfriend. I take no moment spent together for granted.
I hold onto every touch, caress, kiss, every word. I have memorized
the feel of his skin, his smell, the sound of his voice,
and I play it over and over in my mind so that I will not forget.
I cry myself to sleep some nights because missing him hurts so badly,
but wake up the next morning,
brush myself off,
and start a new day.
I am a military girlfriend.
The events of the next several months hold my life, my love,
and my future in the balance.
When you watch the news reports, you may turn away
and go about your business relatively unaffected.
When I watch news stories of the war I do not see nameless soldiers a half a world away.
I see individuals who will be forever changed by war.
News of every casualty causes me physical pain and deep sadness.
I am a military girlfriend,
not a spouse or family member.
When you say your prayers for the wives, mothers, and fathers,
please don't forget about me.
I Am A Military Girlfriend
I am a military girlfriend. I hold no formal recognition with
the powers that be. I am at the bottom of the chain. I hold no
Military ID card, I am not a dependent or a parent. The man I
love may face unspeakable dangers, and I am at the mercy of those
who possess this recognition for news. I understand this and accept
this.
I am a military girlfriend. I have promised to be here for him upon
his return, no matter how long he is away. People may say I am
insane
for making such a commitment with no guarantees, but I hold onto our
promises and have faith that he will come home safe to me. I know full
well that my love for him fuels him in the worst of times.
I am a military girlfriend, there is no ring on my finger to symbolize
our commitment, though I love him no less for it. I hope every day that
he will be able call because a simple 30-second phone call can bring
the greatest spectrum of emotions smiling with tears in my eyes from
so much joy and pain. My relationship is based on a brief
communication where I love you and Im okay speaks more than
volumes
and gives me the strength to keep going.
I am a military girlfriend. I take no moment spent together for granted.
I hold onto every touch, caress, kiss, every word. I have memorized
the feel of his skin, his smell, the sound of his voice,
and I play it over and over in my mind so that I will not forget.
I cry myself to sleep some nights because missing him hurts so badly,
but wake up the next morning,
brush myself off,
and start a new day.
I am a military girlfriend.
The events of the next several months hold my life, my love,
and my future in the balance.
When you watch the news reports, you may turn away
and go about your business relatively unaffected.
When I watch news stories of the war I do not see nameless soldiers a half a world away.
I see individuals who will be forever changed by war.
News of every casualty causes me physical pain and deep sadness.
I am a military girlfriend,
not a spouse or family member.
When you say your prayers for the wives, mothers, and fathers,
please don't forget about me.
Friday, April 9, 2010
28 Things Military Men Should Know About Their Women
1.) If she wasn't emotional before, that is all about to change.
2.) You getting a higher rank could just mean an automatic free lay.
3.) Get her a pair of your dog tags, ASAP, this is crucial she will never take them off.
4.) Most of the time, you losing reception during training is your fault. (Though she will eventually understand.)
5.) Most of the time everything is your fault. (Especially if she's pregnant.)
6.) She WILL start talking like you and your guys talk, including using your last names.
12.) You will catch her comapring your relationship with "other couples" in the military.
13.) She'll make 5 million friends online, and talk to you about them all the time because her "old friends just don't understand" like they do.
14.) Don't be shocked when she just drops civilian chicks out of her life like flies. (She mostly does this when they complain to her.)
15.) DO NOT, if you love her, say anything about you not wanting to make her wait for you...
16.) Most women actually do LOVE it when you are sweaty and dirty. Even the girlie girls. It's sexy as hell.
17.) Only bring up the field once, say it clear, and don't bring it up again. We will remember the time, the dates, like stone inside our mind. Don't remind us.
18.) You ARE our hero. That isn't us being cute, it's us swelling with pride, feeling like a princess everytime we glance over and you're standing there. (Or seeing a pic of you...in my case lol)
19.) Don't worry about waking her up when you get a chance to call, trust me, she's NOT sleeping. If she is, she's been waiting for you to call all night and fell asleep by the phone.
20.) Leave at least 3 of your shirts for her...she'll wear them all the time and if she doesn't wear them out she WILL wear them to sleep.
21.) No matter what she was like before, she is tough and harder than a rock now. She can handle anything, she will get through it, tears or no tears.
22.) Don't be discouraged or taken aback by her strength. It comes with the territory. When in your arms she's still your princess, soft and sweet.
23.) Your kids might see mommy as the one incharge for a while, it's okay they WILL respect you, just give it time.
24.) EVERYTHING in her life will be complicated, so she might actually need your support and encouragement.
25.) Tag Chasers are her WORST enemy, she CAN and WILL spot these girls...random profaine comments may come out of your little queen's mouth...its okay she's protecting her best asset...you.
26.) She will spend hours to look good on cam&pics for you, this is just a past time until you get home, be prepared for messy ponytails and sweat pants when you finally do get home.
27.) Her favorite sentences from you start with "When I get home...."
28.) No matter how much she's changed, never forget that you mean the world to her, she loves you more than anything, and you will ALWAYS be her hero...whether you think you are one or not.
2.) You getting a higher rank could just mean an automatic free lay.
3.) Get her a pair of your dog tags, ASAP, this is crucial she will never take them off.
4.) Most of the time, you losing reception during training is your fault. (Though she will eventually understand.)
5.) Most of the time everything is your fault. (Especially if she's pregnant.)
6.) She WILL start talking like you and your guys talk, including using your last names.
7.) Her patriotism could out-do most of your men....she will be proud...VERY PROUD
8.) Be ready: your car will end up with a yellow ribbon magnet or and "I LOVE MY..." sticker eventually.
9.) She will most likely need a pair of dogtags to hang from the rearview mirror.
10.) Every week she'll have "another song" that makes her think of you when you're away. (And she'll cry to it, even if you're in the same room.)
11.) If you're married she may know the base better than you do...Don't take it perosnally
12.) You will catch her comapring your relationship with "other couples" in the military.
13.) She'll make 5 million friends online, and talk to you about them all the time because her "old friends just don't understand" like they do.
14.) Don't be shocked when she just drops civilian chicks out of her life like flies. (She mostly does this when they complain to her.)
15.) DO NOT, if you love her, say anything about you not wanting to make her wait for you...
16.) Most women actually do LOVE it when you are sweaty and dirty. Even the girlie girls. It's sexy as hell.
17.) Only bring up the field once, say it clear, and don't bring it up again. We will remember the time, the dates, like stone inside our mind. Don't remind us.
18.) You ARE our hero. That isn't us being cute, it's us swelling with pride, feeling like a princess everytime we glance over and you're standing there. (Or seeing a pic of you...in my case lol)
19.) Don't worry about waking her up when you get a chance to call, trust me, she's NOT sleeping. If she is, she's been waiting for you to call all night and fell asleep by the phone.
20.) Leave at least 3 of your shirts for her...she'll wear them all the time and if she doesn't wear them out she WILL wear them to sleep.
21.) No matter what she was like before, she is tough and harder than a rock now. She can handle anything, she will get through it, tears or no tears.
22.) Don't be discouraged or taken aback by her strength. It comes with the territory. When in your arms she's still your princess, soft and sweet.
23.) Your kids might see mommy as the one incharge for a while, it's okay they WILL respect you, just give it time.
24.) EVERYTHING in her life will be complicated, so she might actually need your support and encouragement.
25.) Tag Chasers are her WORST enemy, she CAN and WILL spot these girls...random profaine comments may come out of your little queen's mouth...its okay she's protecting her best asset...you.
26.) She will spend hours to look good on cam&pics for you, this is just a past time until you get home, be prepared for messy ponytails and sweat pants when you finally do get home.
27.) Her favorite sentences from you start with "When I get home...."
28.) No matter how much she's changed, never forget that you mean the world to her, she loves you more than anything, and you will ALWAYS be her hero...whether you think you are one or not.
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