Pictures!!!

Do you see those eye lashes?? I'm jealous of them.

Takes the picture and looks at me and says "I bet this one will be scary!"



Cheese

You make me smiiiile

He's home he's home he's home!!!!!

His handsome self at the airport, he was starving, tired, and excited all rolled into one. His mama sent this to me last night :) Still don't know when I'll see him but I'm praying SOON

HE. IS. ON. THE. PLANE

That's right, he's on a plane on his way here, to me. Soon, well not soon, but eventually, he will be in my arms!! Not soon because I can't make it to the airport, and because tomorrow he has family stuff and work and OMG. If I don't see him soon, like the day after tomorrow at the latest I'm shooting someone. Maybe myself idk. I really hope I get to see him more often this time. But he does live about an hour away. Shit. Maybe I need to cry now. But whatever, soon he will be here and all will be well!!!!!!

Mi telefono

So this is the reason that I have been stuck at home the past two days...snow roads and snow everywhere!! This is definitely weird, because my part of TN NEVER gets snow...like never. Definitely weird...

Okay, so I'm not a person that believes a ring is necessary to solidate a relationship or anything but my friend took me to a website called www.tacori.com and it was mindblowing...they have such pretty rings, but they're SO expensive. Like choke on your food expensive.

This one is my favorite, I like the braided look and it just looks pretty to me :)

"Ben says I look like a killer." Hmm...idk I wana know what that jacket is really...lol I love him he's a goof...we had an argument about who was the bigger nerd as I was writing a research paper and he was at a library reading mangas...who do ya'll think won?

My three year old hair do thanks to Lauren lol You can see our McNugget box in the background :)

What's on MJ's phone??

I've decided I'm a creeper. I can't stop looking at this picture in my phone. ( I know I already used it once for Wordlesss Wednesday but...oh well! lol) Its everywhere, from my background to contact picture for him. I'm so excited to have him here with me in only 11 days!!

I have this one friend named Kayla, she has a dark side, I think she wants me fat for a reason...

Me and Billy!!! *Hi Billy!!!* We were cleaning an elementar school for community service and foudn these glasses, I felt cool lol

My reason for laying out of school today!!! Would you wanna drive in that?

My responses to the ATT guy who kept knocking on our door...yes I am BA I know :) I also brought my 120lb dog inside...I am not ashamed!!!

Weekly round up

Fun fun!!!

Matthew 5:39

A year in review-plus dates

November 2009- On this day, exactly a year ago I said yes to Mr. I was afraid, excited, and anxious. It didn't work out well before so why should it this time? Sooo with a full heart and bated breath it started...

December 2009- We went on our first date :) We went to see New Moon actually. Not the best movie ever...said I love you for the second first time

January 2010- Happy New Year!!!!!! Texted him for the first time and didnt expect the reply I got :) He went to MOS school and we began textn regularly. Feel more and more in love

February 2010- His 19th birthday!! On Feb 1 He was promoted to PFC and I was sooo proud of him.

March 2010- Not a good month for us. We fought a lot and broke up for a day. Bad bad karma because he got assigned to California duty station. :( I hate hate hate that hes so far away. I was at PCUB when he texted me the info. I literally broke down inside a museum and cried for hours.

April 2010- My 17th bday on the 17th!! Woke up to a text from him and it definitely made my day. :D Found out his deployment information...and got a job at MickeyD's

May 2010-Finally got into the swing of him being 3 hours away. Things got busy i got my license!

June 2010- Worked a lot and we established a routine.

July 2010- Same...He proposed and I said yes

August 2010- Started senior year!! Realized how different it was gonna be without him for the last half of senior year. He's gona be gone for seven long months and its gonna kill me so bad

September 2010-Told ya'll about my whole engagement deal!! :)

October 2010- Started to feel like our lives are going in two different directions. It hurt

November-Now..today makes one year weve been together. I still have moments but he helps me through them. I found out he comes home DECEMBER 17-JANUARY 2 :)))

Thats right! He comes home SOOOOOONNNN!! I am one happy MJ

Its hard to make everybody else happy when inside I'm hating it. But apparently I do a good job of it.

Comment on a comment

"I think it is strange how we started this blogging thing as a way to share what was going on in our lives with each other through the school year, because we don't live close. Now, it is like you are a little blog celeb... I am not sure how I feel about that. Should I congradulate you? Should I jump on the bandwagon with you and write what everyone wants to hear? You are one of my best friends, MJ. But for the first time...I feel like I barely know you. :'( I miss you."

Have I really changed that much? Am I really that different? I don't feel like I'm a blog celebrity to be honest. I'm just a normal girl trying to let it all out. I mean, sometimes I wonder if people even read my blog to be honest!! I mean why would you? It's not well written, funny, or even entertaining half the time. And the person who wrote this? I love her dearly. I miss her too, and to answer every question, NO. Don't do anything different from what you're doing.

Soloman 1:2 love it

Thanksgiving!!!

Soooo Mj has many things to be thankful for lately. Awesome friends, amazing family, fantastic almost family (I gots a little brother!! lol), and of course Mr is just...he goes without saying. But before I get into that I have to tell ya'll about a little project I've been participating in lately.

Right now, at this second I am trying to think up 3 different way to say the same thing to three deployed young men. I'm not gonna give a lot of details, for obvious reasons, but let me just say I love writing to them!! I sent my introduction letter to the 3 of them through motomail and I know they got it! My FBLA teacher's daughter is in charge of a bunch, and I wrote to three under her. She called her mother and tld her how excited they all were to get letters from me! AH!! That makes me so happy! I just need to be able to keep it up without feed back, which will be tricky! How do you say the same thing three times??? Without it sounding like you're sayin the same thing??

And also, I've recently learned that Mr comes home for Christmas!!!!! AH!!! How amazing is that? I knew he came home in December but last night we were texting (we still don't talk on the phone regularly, I'm working on that) and he was like what do you want for Christmas? Of course, me, being the sweet heart that I am, said "Nothing really, why?" And he goes, "Not even me?" And I proceeded to freak out. But of course I said "What do you mean?" Because, I mean, come on, who freaks out when they're not sure? Okay I do, but still. And he said "What do you think?" And then I openly freaked out to him. He said he still doesn't know a day specifically, but its supposed to be around that time. Can you say super excited MJ???? Seriously, he was on my Christmas list this year. This is gonna be so awesome. If only it were for more than a week. But beggers can't be choosers :)

So What am I thankful for blogging community?

1. YOU!!! It makes my day to read the comments left on my blog :)
2. My Mr getting to come home for Christmas, even though its only for a week, and even though our 1 year is SATURDAY not Christmas lol
3. My amazing family
4. My fantastic friends- especially the girls I've found through this blog and the mil community, they just get it, as I'm sure most of ya'll know
5. My "almost family" Mr's mother and little brother. I've always wanted a brother, and he's just an amazing kid. He's a year behind me, and even though I punched him in the eye, I know he's gonna be there, lol. And I'm sure ya'll have heard, read?, about me and his mama, she's just simply amazing.
6. My job. I know, weird right? But I'm so thankful for this job of mine, because without it I would not be able to drive, buy anything for senior year, and many other things would not be available to me.
7. My puppy. Well, he's not a puppy, hes a huge Lab but he's just always so happy to see me when I pull into the drive way that it just makes me happy. I love unconditional love like that.
8. My faith. God has become a close confidant of mine the past couple months, and I'm so thankful for our relationship.
9. Mr period. Yes, we have problems, I've posted about them before. We're both just a touch too passive aggressive and we don't tell each other when we get upset, but in the end we always find a way to work it out. He's become a part of my life that I wouldn't know what to do without. He went to his first ball last Thursday, and it broke my heart that I couldn't be there with him.
10. My health. Daycare did a number on my immune system, my whole family can be sick with the worst virus on creation and I'm fine, I take care of them and still don't get it. Very thankful for that.
11. My southern heritage. Yes, there are the bad seeds, the ones who marry their brothers and sisters, but thats mostly in the smaller regions, you don't worry about it in the more populated areas. It's frankly frowned upon.

Well that's all I got, if you've made it this far then thank you!!!! What are YOU thankful for?

Difference in the North and the South- This cracks me up

The North has Bloomingdale's - - - the South has Dollar General.


The North has coffee houses - - - the South has Waffle Houses.


The North has dating services - - - the South has family reunions.


The North has switchblade knives - - - the South has .45s


The North has double last names - - - the South has double first names.


The North has Indy car races - - - the South has stock car races.

The North has Cream of Wheat - - - the South has grits.

The North has green salads - - - the South has collard greens.

The North has lobsters - - - the South has crawfish.

The North has the rust belt - - - the South has the Bible Belt.




FOR NORTHERNERS MOVING SOUTH...

In the South:

If you run your car into a ditch, don't panic.
Four men in a four-wheel drive pickup truck with a tow chain will be along shortly.
Don't try to help them, just stay out of their way.
This is what they live for.

Don't be surprised to find movie rentals and bait in the same store.
Do not buy food at this store.

Remember, 'Y'all' is singular, 'all y'all' is plural, and 'all y'all's' is plural possessive.

Get used to hearing 'You ain't from round here, are ya?'

Save all manner of bacon grease.
You will be instructed later on how to use it.

Don't be worried at not understanding what people are saying.
They can't understand you either.

The first Southern statement to creep into a transplanted Northerner's vocabulary is the adjective 'big'ol,' truck or 'big'ol' boy.
Most Northerners begin their Southern-influenced dialect this way.
All of them are in denial about it.

The proper pronunciation you learned in school is no longer proper.

Be advised that 'He needed killin'... is a valid defense here.

If you hear a Southerner exclaim, 'Hey, y'all watch this,' you should stay out of the way.
These are likely to be the last words he'll ever say.

If there is the prediction of the slightest chance of even the smallest accumulation of snow,
your presence is required at the local grocery store.
It doesn't matter whether you need anything or not.
You just have to go there.

Do not be surprised to find that 10-year olds own their own shotguns,
They are proficient marksmen, and their mammas taught them how to aim.


In the South, we have found that the best way to grow a lush green lawn is to pour gravel on it and call it a driveway.

AND REMEMBER:


If you do settle in the South and bear children, don't think we will accept them as Southerners.
After all, if the cat had kittens in the oven, we ain't gonna call 'em biscuits.

I donated blood today! I feel amazing about it :) to know that MY blood could save a life? It's mind blowing.

Birthday Wishes

Happy birthday to the frusturating, inspiring, amazing, incredible, awe inspiring UNITED STATES MARINE CORPS!!!

Thank you to all of our service men and women, past present and future that have made it possible for me to write this in honor of your service, long post to come tomorrow

Confession time...

I own no USMC love clothing...As in I don't have anything that says "I love my Marine" or "USMC Fiancee" I know. I'm such a loser when it come to that stuff. I know some girls whom that's all that they wear, and I'm just like UH...damn. Wish I had some. So for christmas this year if anyone is curious as to what I want...AHEM HINT HINT. WINK WINK. GIGGLE GIGGLE GIGGLE. BIG RED FIRE TRUCK. Oooh look...a link... http://shop.cafepress.com/usmc-fiancee
*cough cough* Lol but seriously, I want some sweat pants, and a hoodie and a loose comfy
T with that stuff on it. Or a cute T to wear places, bc I would def wear it everyday. Ooh bumper stickers...notepads... O.O Maybe that can be my Christmas present to myself...

Some old Train :)

When it rains it pours and opens doors
That flood the floors we thought would always
Keep us safe and dry

And in the midst of sailing ships
We sink our lips into the ones we love
That have to say goodbye

Idk about ya'll but sometimes I feel this way about deployment. I feel like we're finally getting to a good place and he's gonne up and leave in January.


And as I float along this ocean
I can feel you like a notion
That won't seem to let me go

'Cause when I look to the sky
Something tells me you're here with me
And you make everything alright

And when I feel like I'm lost
Something tells me you're here with me
And I can always find my way when you are here

What can I say to this? It's just perfect :)

And every word I didn't say
Caught up in some busy day
And every dance on the kitchen floor, we didn't have before

And every sunset that we'll miss
I'll wrap them all up in a kiss
And pick you up in all of this when I sail away

I know that sometimes I get so caught up in my life that on the off days that he has a real chance to text me all day and don't get me wrong I love those days, but they're always my busiest days. I feel like when that happens I tend to ignore him just a little bit. And the fact that I know I do this kills me.

And while I float upon this ocean
I can feel you like a notion
That I hope will never leave

'Cause when I look to the sky
Something tells me you're here with me
And you make everything alright

And when I feel like I'm lost
Something tells me you're here with me
And I can always find my way

Whether I'm up or down or in or out
Or just plain overhead
Instead it just feels like it is impossible to fly

But with you I can spread my wings
To see me over everything
That life may send me when I am hoping it won't pass me by

No matter what kind of day I'm having I know that he'll be there for me :)

And when I feel like there is no one
That will ever know me
There you are to show me

When I look to the sky
Something tells me you're here with me
And you make everything alright

And when I feel like I'm lost
Something tells me you're here with me
And I can always find my way when you are here

When I look to the sky
Something tells me you're here with me
And I can always find my way when you are here

And when I feel like I'm lost
Something tells me you're here with me
And I can always find my way when you are here

Jimi Hendrix- Wordless Wednesday

B by Sarah Kay

I hope I have the courage to be this mom :)

Point B
Instead of “mom”
She’s going to call me “Point B.”
Because that way
She knows that no matter what happens
At least she can always find
Her way to me.

And I’m gonna paint the
Solar system on the back
Of her hands,
So that she has to learn
The entire universe
Before she can say
“I know that like the back of my hand.”

She’s gonna learn that this life
Will hit you.
Hard in the face.
Wait for you to get
Back up,
So it can kick you
In the stomach.

But getting the wind
Knocked out of you
Is the only way to remind
Your lungs how much
They like the taste of
Air.

There is hurt here.
That cannot be fixed
By band aids or poetry.
And the first time she realizes
That Wonderwoman isn’t coming,
I’ll make sure she knows that
She doesn’t have to wear
The cape
All by herself.

Cause no matter how wide
You stretch your fingers.
Your hands will always
Be too small
To catch all the

Pain you want to
Heal.
Believe me.
I’ve tried.

“And baby,”
I’ll tell her,
Don’t keep your nose
Up in the air
Like that.
I know that trick.
You’re just smelling
For smoke.
So you can follow the trail
Back to a burning house
So you can find the boy
Who lost everything
In the fire.
To see if you can
Save him.
Or else find the boy
Who lit the fire
In the first place
To see if you can
Change him.

But I know
That she will anyways.
So instead
I’ll always keep
An extra supply
Of chocolate and rain boots
Near by.
Because there’s no
Heartbreak that chocolate
Can’t fix.
Okay….
There’s a few
Heartbreaks that chocolate
Can’t fix,
But that’s what
The rain boots are for!
Because rain will
Wash away everything
If you let it.

I want her to see the world
Through the underside of a
Glass bottom boat.
To look through a
Magnifying glass
At the galaxies
That exist on the pinpoint
Of a human mind.

Because that’s the way
My mom taught me.
That there’ll be days
Like this.
There’ll be days
Like this,
My momma said.

When you open your
Hands to catch
And wind up with
Only blisters
And bruises.
When you step out
Of the phoneboot
And try to fly,
And the very people
You wanna save.
Are standing on
Your cape.

When your boots
Are filled with
Rain,
And you are
Up to your knees
With disappointment
And those are the
Very days
You have all the more
Reason to say
Thank you!

Cause there is nothing
More beautiful than
The way the
Ocean refuses
To stop kissing
The shore line,
No matter how many
Times it’s sent
Away.

You will put the “win”
In win some,
Lose some.
You’ll put the “star”
In starting over and over.
And no matter
How many
Landmines
Erupt in a minuet.
Be sure your mind
Lands on the beauty
Of this funny place
Called:
Life.

And yes.
On a scale of
1 to…
Overtrusting.
I am pretty fuckin
Naive.
But I want
Her to know
That this world
Is made out of
Suger.
It can crumble
So easily,
But don’t be afraid
To stick your
Tongue out and
Taste it.

“Baby!”
I’ll tell her,
“Remember,
Your momma
Is a worrier,
But your papa
Is a warrior.
And you are
The girl with
Small hands
And big eyes,
Who never stops
Asking for more.

Remember that
Good things
Come in 3(s)
And so do
Bad things.
And always
Apologize when
You’ve done
Something wrong,
But don’t you ever
Apologize for the way
Your eyes never
Stop shining.
Your voice
Is small
But don’t ever
Stop singing.

And when they
Finally hand you
Heartbreak,
Slip hatered
And war
Under your
Doorstep
And hand you
Handouts on
Street corners
Of cynicism
And defeat.

You tell them
That they
Really ought to
Meet your
Mother.

In the process

Of making a list of things not to do at mcdonalds...lol its gonna be great :)

Things NOT to do when you come to McDonalds

Drive Through:


Please Don't:

• Sit for five minutes in my drive thru and discuss on the phone what you are going to order before you acually do it.


• Please don't dig for money after you order. At least have your wallet out. I mean come on.


• YELL AT YOUR CHILDREN IN THE BACK SEAT WHILE I HAVE MY HEADSET ON. WE CAN HEAR EVERYTHING YOU SAY!!!!!!!!


• Change your order at the window


• Change your order after you have already paid and I have given you change. I CANNOT CHANGE IT AFTER YOU GIVE ME MONEY. IT'S THE RULES.


• Complain to me about the person who took your order. I probably do not have the authority to do anything about it.


• Give 3 coupons at the window. It's a hassle. Just don't do it.


• Order food for 20 different people in my drive through. If we are wrapped around the building then have the common sense to come inside.
• If we say please pull to the first window, stay at the first window. That's where we take your money.
• Back up in the drive through. Nuff said.
• Bring trailers in the drive through.
• Come through drive through naked. Nobody wants to see that
• Come through drive through with your teenager and her boy friend in your back seat making out. Yes we will laugh, and point, we've done it before. IT's just frowned upon.
• Come through drive thru smoking a joint. It's just too tempting for some people.
• Come through drunk. That's just rude.
• Come through giving someone a bj or vice versa. That's just weird, and slightly illegal.
• Hit on the girl in the window, esp if you're over the age of 35. Also slightly illegal.
• WE DO NOT WANT TO RIDE IN YOUR CAR WITH YOU OLD MEN

There are a lot more but I can't think of them :) Have a great day ya'll!!

Baby Blogger :)

I have a brand new blogger to introduce to ya'll.... http://bethanylynn13.blogspot.com She is sincerely one of my best friends and I just read her first post, and I'm sorry but I didn't know she could write so dang well!!! She's not a Mil blogger, but a good read :) So go check her out, OH and the make up? She did that herself. Yeah, I know right?

Wordless Wednesday- I miss this right here.

*sigh*

My New Button!!!! And..I had an accident.

I made a new button to go with the new name!! I'm still not sure about the picture...what do ya'll think?





On to other news, I had a car accident last night. I tried to stop at a stop sign, and started to skid all over the road, flew in between two trees and landed on flat ground beside a creek. Yes, I'm fine, I'll post some pictures of the crash site. I feel so lucky right now. Yes, my car is...broken, and yes it will cost a lot of money to fix it, but I'M STILL HERE. How I did not nosedive and hit the concrete culver, I will never know. I choose to think God was in that car with me. The last thing I remember seeing is a tree in the center of my windshield. Then I was just sitting there. The driver's side window crashed in around me. The windshield split over my head. But it didn't break. I sat there for a minute, and then tried to open my door. It wouldn't budge. So MJ got to be a race car driver....That's right I slid out of the window. I couldn't find my phone, so I ran up the hill to the road, and tried to flag down a car. A few passed by giving me dirty looks. Yes, even in podunk they still pass by a neighbor, sad if you ask me. But one man did stop, he was my angel yesterday. We'll call him W.S. He pulled over, let me use his cell phone, and stayed with me until my mother got there, and then stayed until the police got there. He was so nice, he kept telling me not to cry, it'll be okay. I was worried about my parents being mad at me and he just told me that all they would care about is me being okay.


So my parents got there and called the police.The police officer took one look at the car, the path it traveled, and asked how I was still alive. I was like "Uh...*sob*" And buried my head in my mom's shoulder lol. I cried a lot yesterday.


I told Mr. and he called me when the police were questioning me, so I couldn't talk to him. When I got home I took a shower, I had glass EVERYWHERE, and he called when I got out, it felt so good to talk to him. I told him I was fine but of course he didn't believe me and asked to talk to my mother. After that he just tried to make me laugh. I got to talk to one of his friends, unexpectedly, like just handed the phone to him and walked off...lol, and apparantly he'd been talking about it because his friends were concerned, that made me feel kinda special, not gonna lie.


But yeah, I stayed home today for some minor soreness but other than that I'm fine :)

The cop car is right in front of hte stop sign

The car came in the opening right above the concrete. The cop said if I hadn't have been turning right I would have nose dived into the creek, flipped and gotten seriously injured.






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Renewed faith

I've so given up on that 30 day thing, If I could keep up with those things I think they would be pretty awesome but it turns out that work and school are totally against me.

I haven't blogged in a while because I just haven't felt like I have anything at all to say. I mean I still don't think I have anything worth listening to but ya'll seem to think so :)

Recently I've read a book series called The Mark of The Lion by Francine Rivers. The series is about the struggle some Christians faced during the century after Jesus was crucified. I would like to say that I was such a good Christian before hand that none of it affected me, but I would be lying. These books made me realize how much religious freedom we have now, and how much I've taken advantage of it. The struggles these characters face are nothing compared to what the main characters go through. I strongly recommend these books to anyone. The main character Hadassah honestly makes me want to be a better person. She lost her whole family in the fall of Jerusalem and she still had faith in the Lord, it in fact made her stronger. These books brought me peace and joy when I didn't even realize I needed them :)

Days 14-19

Day 14- A hero that has let you down (letter)- I can't really think of anything for this one :/ I know, I'm pitiful.


Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Definitely the Mister. Currently he's lost his phone charger and we have't talked for giong on 3 weeks now. It kind of makes me mad, because I know he gets on Facebook, and I don't even get an email but whatever. I went a year without him in my life and it was definitely empty and I was definitely pathetic!

Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Chewing Tobacco, Mr picked up the habit and its definitely so disgusting!

Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
The Bible and Redeeming Love. Those two books came to me during a hard time in my life, and when I was at my lowest I just picked up the Bible and realized that I could do it on my own. The Bible kept me going when me and Mr weren't together, and it's kept me sane while he's been gone. Redeeming Love proved to me that no matter what I do He will always love me :)


Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
It's absolutely none of my business if two homosexual people marry each other. How in any way does that affect me?


Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
I think that religion is necessary to keep the world in order, and that it holds the world together. But on the other hand it tears it apart.
I don't have a political opinion, I don't know anything about it so I'm not gonna open my mouth about it :)

Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)

Dear Blink 182, Paramore, Three Days Grace, and Taking Back Sunday,
Thank you for being the awesome bands that you are. I wouldn't be here if it weren't for you during my sophomore year, so thank you. When me and Mr. broke up I thought I was dead, but you brought me back. :D

Love forever and always
MJ

I miss the boy that I talked to back in February where'd he go?

Days 9-12

Day 9 Someone you didn't want to let go but just drifted.

My friend Heather. She's a year ahead of me, so she graduated last year, she also had the prettiest sweetest baby ever Olivia miday through her senior year. She is honestly one of my hero's. Idk how she does it. I still love her to death but things just didn't work and we drifted over the summer. It hurts not talking to her as much as I used to.

Also my friend Brooke. She also had a baby, but she got pregnant at the end of sophomore year, so she was homeschooled Junior year and she has already graduated and started college this year. Soo not only am I super jealous I'm also super proud of her. We recently started texting, so we're kind a back in touch, and I realize how much I missed her. She literally saved me sophomore year

Day 10 Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn't know.

I can honestly say no one. I believe that everyone is put in your life for a reason, and sometimes they're there for a little while or a long while, but no matter what the time they were there to teach you a lesson or to help you get through something. I'm thankful for all the people who have been in my life. I like to believe that everyone has taught me something, or made me realize something about myself. Sure some have been enemies, but isn't an enemy just someone who is in more need of our love than we realize?

Day 11 Something people seem to compliment you on

Well at work people always talk about my eyes. I mean EVERYONE. Especially random drive thru customers. Mister tends to like them too :)

People also say I look diff outside work? Especially with my hair down? Is that a compliment?

Day 12 Something you never get compliments on

My honesty!! Lol

10 Months

Holy cow as of yesterday its been 10 wonderful, terrifying months. I can't belive it!

Day 8 Someone who has made your life hell or treated you like shit

Every bully from the age of 5-now...currently former friends...the USMC...

Questions!

Stacy from http://ramblingmilitarywife.blogspot.com/ tagged me!! I'm not gonna tag, but if you want to answer the questions take it!! :))

1. Where do you picture yourself in 5 years?

Hope fully I'm almost done with college, I've heard that nursing can take up to 5 and 6 years. And from what I've figured out it may take that long for me and Mr. to get married

2. What would you do if you won the lottery?

Right now pay off all my family's bills and especially the mortgage!! I would definitely buy a plane ticket to California and buy a condo there :)

3. What is your favorite season?

Fall! The leaves, the weather isn't too hot or too cold, and I just love it. It's cuddling weather

4. What is your favorite sport, if any?

Football to watch!! But UT has sucked recently...we need another 1998!

5. Do you have any pets?

A big chocolate lab named Clifford!

6. Where is one place you hope to go in your lifetime?

Okinawa, Scotland, Ireland, France, Oh wait, just one??

7. Can you describe your dream home?

Hara (sp?) from Gone With The Wind

8. Do you have any blogging secrets or tips to share?

Don't force a post, if you do it won't sound right!! And if you want comments then you MUST comment on other blogs

Day 7 Someone who has made your life worth living for

Well I have a couple.

1)My baby sister. Hands down, she is the one person who I always try to be a better person for. I try to get good grades, not act like a complete brat, and everything in between for the girl. She's 10 now and she's just growing up so freaking fast.

2) Of course Mister. For the simple fact that even though every now and then he kills me there are more times when he makes me happy I woke up that morning.

Day 6 Something you hope you never have to do

Say goodbye. That's all I can say.

Day 5 Something You Hope to Do in your Life

I hope that I help people. Really, I'm not even joking, all that I want to do with my life is to help. I want to be a nurse. I used to want to be a doctor, but I learned through my Papaw's long hospital stay that nobody remembers the doctors. It's the NURSE that comes to check on you, the NURSE that you talk to about your family, who gets to meet them. There's a stronger connection, and I think I need that to keep from being burned out in my career, if not I'll crave it and miss it.

And yes, I am the cheeseball that helps everyone and everything she sees. I pay for homeless people to eat, let people slide on change at work and make it up with my own money, and I have on occassion stopped to help a turtle. I don't know what it is, but when I see people or animals or anything that looks like it needs help I get this overwhelming urge to do SOMETHING that it takes me over. If I ignore it I will beat myself up over it for days after, or end up crying and going back. I know it sounds naive, and innocent to just want to help people, but I promise I'm not any of these things, I just choose to see they good in people, and it's the good I want to help. Everybody has a little bit of if in them, and it appeals to me.

What do YOU want to do?

Day 4 Something you have to forgive someone for

Hmm I really don't know the answer to this one, I mean, I don't make a habit of holding grudges if I can help it, although I can. And what's going on right now with former friends, well I have to take some of the blame for it, because I could have asked instead of facebook posted. BUT that's beside the story. I guess that I have some things that I still don't quite feel good about when I think of them, but they're not worth mentioning really. Sooo hmm...I don't really know.

Well if I had to say I would say that Mister's ex-friend "Trouble" still bothers me. NO, trouble is not his name but i don't wanna give him away either. He decided to call me when him and Miser were drunk one day and test the relationship, and well, it just wasn't good, I still have a little bit of anger and resentment over that.

Day 3 Something I have to forgive myself for.

All of the times I get close to giving up. I'm the type of person who beats herself up over every little thing in a relationship, and I need to forgive myself for the times I 've thought "This is to hard, I can't do this." I feel like when I think this it transfers over into my relationship with him and he can feel that I think about this...weird I know. Even now thinking about it I feel bad. Has anyone else ever felt this way?

Days 1 and 2 combined

Something I hate about myself- Hmm well there would have to be 2, my double chin and my arms!! Both are way too large in my opinion...I do way too good a job covering them up in my pictures

Something I love about myself- again 2, my eyes and my teeth! By some freak accident I have decently white and straight teeth. And I always get compliments on my eyes, at work, and Mister has even remarked on them before ;)

Something New and Yes, DETAILS!!!

I found this over at Writing Letters in My Scrubs, and I think that it's an amazing idea! I will start it tomorrow for sure!

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

And da da da daaaa...details!

He asked me on July 20th at 8 at night over the phone. Yes, I know, over the phone. Now, I know what some of ya'll are thinking, I would be too. Over the phone really? Wth??? But he won't be home until Christmas and I basically knew it was coming because
He sucks at keeping secrets, he had been dropping hints for the past month: I have a question for you when I come home and stuff like that. He was originally gonna do it when I graduate, bc he thought that was in December but then realized I graduate in May when he's deployed (MAKES ME WANNA CRY!!) so....he was just like well Icould just ask when I get home...but he decided to go ahead and do it.

"MJ I want to ask you something..."
MJ( thinking to herself :he's gonna do it over the phone? Ok...)"What?"
"Well depending on your answer it could be really bad or really good."
"What?!?!?!"
"MJ, I love you and want to spend the rest of my life with you (at this point I'm thinking,I knew it!) and I want to know will you marry me?"
MJ pauses for a few seconds "yeah! I mean, of course, Yeah, yes! Of course! You even have to ask? I thought it was implied by now!"

So that's how it happened, and yes, I am going to make him redo it when he comes home over Christmas, the whole get down on one knee bit and all! Bc right now I think of it like I'm not engaged, I'm "engaged" bc no ring and not in person...but then again he asked and I said yes so I guess that makes it official!

I was so stoked the whole week after, like lieterally could not believe it....work didn't even suck! It turns out his Mama had known for literally MONTHS since like April. So these are my details :) Right now I'm so happy with my life, with the exception of some work situations...but like I said after stuff happens I'll have to spill all!

Soo suprise...im engaged!

Oh my...

Thank you my loyal awesome amazing followers for not completely deserting me!!!! I haven't blogged in so long!! And...well there are a few reasons for it, I don't really know how to put into words what i'm feeling lately!

Mister is back, and has been for about a week, so that's a good thing...I guess. Don't get me wrong, I'm so super pumped to be able to talk to him again but I really just wish that he was HERE. There's so much going on right now in my life, college apps, personal statements..., that just having him here to go cuddle with would just make my world complete.

On top of that work is weird, that's all I can say at the moment, when stuff starts to happen I'll let ya'll know... :/

Speaking of, I need college help!! Do any of ya'll have any tips on writing personal statements?? I'm at such a loss, Having major writer's block!!

4 DAYS!!

Yay!!! So since I last posted, I've gotten to talk to him twice! Silly boy didn't listen to me when I took ya'll's advice and told him to take his phone with him...ugh. So he's been using his friend's. And they're in the home stretch of training! I honestly didn't think I would be able to make it but I have, and boy am I proud of myself! Lol I'm working on reading everyone's blog, school has been super busy so I'm a lil behind, I may not comment (bc I don't know what to say lol i always have that problem!) But I will def be reading everything ya'll post! Oh and work? Works is just...*shudder* let's steer away from that lol.

I GOT A CAR!!!!! Lol thats all for now : )

14 Days left!

Well it seems like everytime I do a blog post I'm apologising for NOT blogging...oops. But the first week of school is officially over!!! It went...well I guess, I mean not great, not bad. It really cemented the fact for me personally that I'm growing distant from ALOT of people. And that makes me sad. But its senior year, and in 8.5 months they wont matter anymore:D Also, I'm growing closer to some people, which I LOVE because said people are pretty damn sweet. :)))) I'm so happpy with life right now, I feel like its all goin right, minus a few things. But those things are so...not important lol. AUGH yay life!! Plus, it helps that the countdown is over half way done!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Almost just 13 days til I get to talk to my Mister, I can't wait!!!

"...And it's been a while.."

So I love that song. Who am I kiddin, I just love Staind period! But that's not the point of this post lol.

Sooo...ready for another installment of today at work? This one just blows my mine, well really it was yesterday at work but I'm just now posting it.

This man totally made me cry at work yesterday. Yeah, I know. He was just so rude and mean, and he made me soo mad! Okay, so he walks in, comes to my register and says

"Are you serving breakfast or lunch?"

MJ "Sir hold on a moment. *callls back and asks if we have any breakfast left incase he wants some*

"That's NOT what I was asking you. Are you on breakfast or lunch?"

MJ "Sir we're on lunch, but breakfast just ended and I was checking to see if we had any left incase you wanted some."

"Well, that's NOT THE ANSWER THAT I WANTED. I was looking for ^No sir we are on lunch^"

MJ"Sir I'm sorry, I was just trying to..."

"I was lookng for which menu you are on. I didn't ask you to call back for me. I just wanted to know if you were on lunch."

MJ visibly upset at this point "Kim (manager) will you take this man's order?" And he proceeds to walk out.

And I walked away with tears in my eyes. I was just so embarassed! I mean, really I cried at work, and over something that stupid! It's not like I haven't had my fair share of rude customers, but yesterday I just let it get to me for some reason. It didn't help though that when I walked away I started to want to text Mister and then realized that I couldn't do that for 25 more days. Just his response to that would have made me smile "I'll kill him." Really, that's all it would have said.

So now there's 24 days left, I've made it almost a week, WE've made it almost a week. I miss him so much, and I worry too, I mean, he's in a desert, where it's in the 100s all the time. And he's got all his gear on, and his knee hurts him and ugh I'm gonna make myself crazy. I keep going through our texts (does anybody else save the really sweet ones?) and they always make me smile. I love him so much!

*Correction*

He told me yesterday before he left for training that it is only 30 days, so I only have 29 more to go!!!! YAAAAAY!

I will NOT start a Facebook war!

Okay I'm having a reallly really really bad urge to comment on something Mister's dad left on his fb page. It's not bad, it says I love you and junk but I have this ridiculous urge to be like 'YOU LIAR! IF YOU LOVED HIM YOU WOULDN'T HAVE CALLED HIM NAMES AND MADE HIM FEEL LIKE SHIT AND IGNORED HIM FOR THE FIRST YEARS OF HIS LIFE! GET OUT OF IT NOW!" But I won't because I'm a decent person. I also have the urge to add in something like "If you hurt him again I swear to well idk I don't swear to God, but I swear I will come and find you. I promise you that if you insult him, yell at him, try to steal his identity *ahem*, or in any way make him feel bad you will get it." BUT...again I'm a good person. But it is just OH so tempting. I am literally shaking right now with the effort to resist. I freaking hate his dad. He may not, but I do. His dad is scum and I wish they had never gotten back in touch.

Ugh. Just ugh. What do I do??? Just ignore it and pretend like I"m soooo happy when really my heart and my mine is screaming "Bad decision! He's gonna hurt him, don't let it happen!" :/

Shuffle!

How am I feeling today?
* 1985

Bowling For Soup
comment: Hmm nostalgia, yeah, I can go with that

Will I get far in life?
* Be Like That
Three Doors Down
comment: Well okay then.

How do my friends see me?
* Always

Blink 182
comment: Well I hope not.

What is my best friend's theme song?
* Whenever You Remember

Carrie Underwood
comment: Aw well not really but its a good song

What is the story of my life?
*Girls & Boys

Good Charlotte
comment: Nah...

What was highschool like for me?
*Thunder Kiss '65
White Zombie
comment: Well uh idk about that lol

How can I get ahead in life?
*What a Shame
Shinedown
comment: So...I'm gonna smoke 2 packs of cigerattes a day, and the strongest whisky Kentucky can make...or I'm gonna know someone like that. Okay then.

What is the best thing about me?
*Over and Over
Three Days Grace
comment: So true.

How is today going to be?
*Heaven (Little by Little)
Theory of a Deadman
comment: Lol what does this have to do with anything?

What is in store for this weekend?
*Weightless
All Time Low
comment: Oooh maybe it'll be fun!

What song describes my parents?
*A Song For the Hopeless
All That Remains
comment: HAHA wow.

How is my life going?
*Stay Together For the Kids
Blink 182
comment: Wow. That hurts its so true.

What song will they play at my funeral?
*45
Shinedown
comment: I'm gonna commit suicide...??

How does the world see me?
*Lost in Stereo
All Time Low
comment: So I guess I'm absent minded...I can see that

Will I have a happy life?
*That's What You Get
Paramore
comment: Great. Just fantastic.



Well I feel like that was completely untrue lol.

Fun Fun!

So this totally reminds me of MySpace and it totally got me interested...we all know we secretly llove these!

What is your favorite salad dressing? Ranch

What is your favorite sit down restaurant? O'Charleys

What food could you eat for 2 weeks straight and not get sick of it? Spaghetti!

What are you pizza toppings of choice? Ham and pineapple

What do you like to put on your toast? Butter and cinnamon

How many televisions are in your house? 5

What color cell phone do you have? Red and black

What does the first message in your inbox say and who sent it? Well. This is mushy but " I really do love you so much you have no idea" from the Mister

Who was the last person to call you? My lil red head friend Ashley

Are you right-handed or left-handed? Left

Have you ever had anything removed from your body? Just teeth

What is the last heavy item you lifted? My sister lol

If it were possible would you want to know the day you were going to die? Depends

If you could change your name, what would you change it to? Something that doesn't make customers try to talk to me in Spanish, I mean, really? Marissa doesn't mean that I'm Spanish

Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000? Heck no! I don't care for spicy things

How many pairs of flip flops do you own? Like 2

Last time you had a run-in with the cops? I never have, I'm a good kid like that :)

Last person you talked to in person? Family

Favorite Month? None really

Currently missing someone? Of course

Current mood? A little hurt.

What are you listening to? Bathwater running

What are you watching? Nothing

What are you worrying about? The fall semester

Last movie you saw? Four Christmases

Do you smile often? Yes

Do you always answer your phone? Yes, unless I am busy or really upset about something.

It's four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it? Somebody who wants to die. But probably Kolby not bein able to sleep.

If you could change your eye color, what color would you choose? The kind of hazel that looks purple

Do you own a digital camera? Yes, but its retarded.

Have you ever had a pet fish? They all die, its sad.

Favorite Christmas song? Tender Tennessee Christmas

What's on your wish list for your birthday? No deployment? Not possible? Uhm idk

Can you do push ups? Uhm no.

Can you do a chin up? Haha funny story, the last time I did that it was embarassing and I farted in front of my fifth grade class. It was very traumatic.

Does the future make you more nervous or excited. Oh boy, it makes me more jittery so nervoud I guess

Ever been in a car wreck. No

What is the last song to make you cry? Breath by Breaking Benjamin...I should stop listening to it bc it always puts me in a sad place

Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom? All the time.

Name three things you bought yesterday? Well today, I bought a new purse, some crazy good smelling deoderant (cherry mischief by secret) and gum

Have you ever been given roses? Mister had them delivered to the school for my 15th bday Freshman year

Do you have an accent? I say Ya'll and I live in a place called Tuckyhoe. Im gonna say yes.

Current hate right now? People reading over my shoulder when I'm on the computer

Met someone who changed your life? Of Course

Name three people who might complete this? Heck If I know lol.

What were you doing at 12am last night? Finally asleep!

I'm baaaaaack!

Ah blog world I missed you so! Vacation was fun, I'm planning a post on it. And I'm slowly but surely checking all of your blogs!!

New Page(s)

So I've seen a few spouses doing pages for different things, and I thought that I would do something a little different. Coming soon are different pages of poems, songs, and links for military spouses. I think that some of these are just so beautifully written, and I think that we all enjoy reading them. So I'm gonna do pages for the different branches: USMC, Army, Air Force, Coast Guard, Navy, National Guard, are there any I'm leaving out? If I am please let me know and I'll be adding them!!!

45 Days

He's leaving for 45 days for some training. 45 days. That's the longest we've gone without talking to each other. I think I'm going to go crazy. I know it's nothing next to deployments some have gone through. But this is the longest we've gone without talking since...well since we were broken up to be honest. Even in bootcamp there were letters. Now there's...nothing. Dead air for 45 days. No more "Goodnight I love you" or "lol" conversations. I'll even miss little arguments. How sad is that? I was going to send him a care package but we're leaving Monday to go on vacation so there's no time for me to get one done, and actually have it look good and be homemade. I'm not gonna send him some store bought cookies...no. I'm gonna spend 45 days on this carepackage, I've already got some ideas cooking up.

I'm thinking about 45 days while you were gone, maybe like daily pics of what goes on while he's gone? I mean, he's gonna miss so much. (Does anybody else notice the irony? He's gonna miss my first an21st.d last day of school) And I have a feeling so much is gonna happen.I will be HIGHLY upset with the USMC if they keep him longer. Which knowing them they probably will. Sad though because I want his carepackage to be waiting on him when he gets back, kind of like a welcome back kind of thing. Idk, ya'll have done em more than I have, do you have any ideas I could use? I want it to be good, especially for my first one to him.

On a different note, I've had people asking how we are, and I realize I haven't done a post about him in a while...oops lol. We're good, he's good. He forgets to text and call back, he gets busy, we fight, BUT at the end of the day we're good. I have to realize that things aren't always his fault, and he can't help some things. As long as I hear I love you at the end of the day I'm good.

I have to admit, I pulled a bitch move yesterday. He called and I missed it and tried to call him back and he texted me saying hold on I'm in chow don't try yet and I said Lol wasn't gonna. And...wow that was just mean. When you know you were mean...wow. Kinda makes it sound like I don't wanna talk to him, which is completely untrue. I kicked myself for missing that call...and it was just weird for the rest of the day. Wonder what today will bring...gotta go pack and stuff

My 3rd Award!!!

I received this award from Chelsey @

I'll be seeing you Check her out, I want her shoes, her cat, and her and her hubby are so cute together!

I also received it from Nicole @

The Sweet Life of Semper Fi her blog is awesome, and her and her Marine make an adorable couple! (she's also engaged so major congrats on that!)

And also Anna @ Shotimes and Dog Tags I kind of want to be her when I grow up...she has so much love in her life!! Her and her Marine were high school sweethearts, and they give me hope for me and my Mister

The rules for this award are:

1. Thank and link back to the person that gave you the award.

2. Share 7 things about yourself.

3. Pass the award to 9 fellow bloggers that inspire you.

4. Let them know about the award.

So, 7 things about myself:

1. I have this secret goofy side, that lets me have random FB convos with my friends in which we just yell random things at each other...yes we are freaks! :)

2. My phone has a bad habit of calling people without my permission...At least thats what I'm gonna say about it.

3. If you didn't already know, I love babies!!!

4. I have been described as very nice. Of course Mister calls me innocent, but idk...I mean I only met that internet person that once okay?? Jk that never happened lol

5. Mister likes to think he is romantic, but I"m the one who remembers the dates thank you very much...

6. Last night I couldn't sleep and really just wanted him there so I could lay my head on his chest and listen to his heartbeat...that sounds awesome right now.

7. I am easily guilt tripped...

Well I'm gonna break the rules because I can't think of 9 people so...lol

Adrie's Corner This girl is truly and Angel! She's also part of Soldier's Angels, an organization where you can "adopt" soldiers who need people to write home to, well Idk if I'm doing it justice by trying to explain it so just hop on over and let her do it for me!

On the other side

On the other side of the emotional wreck that I've been lately I've realized some important things. I am a good person. Just because some people don't feel a need to have me in their lives anymore does not mean that it's my fault. It's not my fault that they just don't want to put forth effort anymore so...oh well.

I got some advice from a new friend who I hope sticks around for awhile because man is she smart lol. She mentioned that if they want you around then they'll make the effort. You shouldn't have to put forth 100% by yourself. And I have to learn what's worth more to me. Do I realy want to be a part of peoples lives when they don't want me? I mean, really?

I am truly thankful for the people that I have in my life right now, this day, at this moment. I have more love and happiness in my life than I know what to do with, now that I've realized all of this. I have my Marine, and really, what more do I need?

On a happier note, look at this poem that my FB friend Nikki Kelly posted on a pic as a comment:

A marine's girlfriend, what can friends say?

I sit by the phone and wait for it to ring.

Terrified and excited by the news it may bring.

The phone doesn't ring, no cards in the mail. There's no one to help me along this trail.

The wives have support on every post. Where are my friends when I need them the most?

Wonderful advice from friends who don't know, about loving a man and watching him go.

"Quit all that moping, it can't be that bad." They don't understand how I could be so sad. "You have the freedome to do as you choose, so why are you trembling as you watch the news?"

I close my eyes and fight the tears. Then take a deep breath to calm all my fears.

He fights for his country and people in need. To free from hatred and greed.

He fights for their lives, yet no one can understand why I miss his smile and the touch of his hand.

He chose his career and I gave him my heart. To have when together and even apart.

I had no idea what he signed on for. How I long for the day he'll walk through the door.

A Marine's girlfriend, standing tall, a cheerful facade shown to one and all.

Shoulders back and head held high. Refusing to let anyone see me cry.

I'm filled with honor, pride and love. Certainly I am blessed from the heavens above.

I'll find the strength to see it through. For in my heart, my love is true.

I honor the vows I will say, sometime in the future on our wedding day.

Until that day comes, I'll sit here alone. Patiently waiting right next to the phone.

The government called and took him away, but in my heart is where he will stay.

I crawl into my bed and turn out the light. Close my eyes and pray he's alright. For my Marine, too far from home, for I again, sleep alone. ♥

Getting to know you!

If you're new, welcome! And if you're not, well, hope you learn somethin new lol

1. Thong or Granny Panties?
Haha Thongs and boxers

2. If you see a guy with his fly down, do you tell him?
Yes, I'm very opinionated. I dont wanna see that.

3. Spanx or no Spanx?
No Spanx

4. Do you sleep in your sheets?
Lol No, I sleep on top with a quilt

5. What is your favorite Disney character?
Ariel or Jasmine or Pocahontas!!

6. Dream vacation spot?
Okinawa

7. What is your dream job?
Nurse with babies!

8. Who is your hero and why?
My mom, because shes literally the strongest person I know.

Today at work...

So I haven't done a post about work in a while...because frankly its draining to rehash it, but I just had to share about today.

Today at work, a new phrase was invented to talk about people who work at mcdonalds. FT. FT stands for F*** Tard. Thank you Ashley my manager. That just makes us feel so much better about ourselves. Because we didn't already feel like losers since we work at MCDONALDS. *** really i think this is brilliant, I just hate that I'm an FT.

Today at work, we had a steady stream of people from 1230- well idk I left at 430 and it was still strong. I was supposed to be off at 4. Such is life at McDonalds. At least I earned back what I lost for taking a break.

Today at work, the milkshake machine spat at us. Literally it urped on us. And all of the vanilla was yellow. Not WHITE like its supposed to be, but YELLOW. And not a pretty yellow, it was a pee yellow. It wasn't because it was bad, it was because it let too much vanilla flavoring into the line and lets just say it was concentrated.

Today at work I worked front line. Which is where you take the money from people who walk in. Thats all I did. I took money. Smiled. Said good bye. Said good bye again when people stood there and stared at me for not getting their food. Yelled "Can I help anyone???" When nobody moved. And let me tell you, no body moved.

So this was my day...it sucked. But now I'm going to try to forget about it and move on. Try.

Fawk You Friday

So this is fun to do!! It's a little end of the week vent, link up thing so yay!!!!

Fawk you to money problems...if I could take it all away for you Mama I would!

Fawk you heart disease...I miss you so much sometimes Papaw!

Fawk you work. Really, first you take over my life and then you give me no hours, really, MAKE UP YOUR MIND!

Fawk you gas...I have an 1/8 of a tank...and need more....

Fawk you old friendships, I think good riddance is the word here really!!!

Fawk you deployments...I hate thinking about you, because you're soon to take over my life...

Fawk you lady who came into work and got mad because I didn't jump to attention to take your order, you need some happy pills lady!

Updates

So...I'm thinking it's time to let go of some friends. You know the kind of friends who go out with each other without inviting you even though you're supposed to be like the 4 "best friends"? I think it's time to let go on some people in my life. I know that it's going to be really hard for me. I tend to care entirely too much about my friends. But I know that they're making me feel like crap. So I have to do it, as much as I don't want to.
I'm just so tired of caring and then not getting anythng back from it. Ugh just people.

Me and Mister are WONDERFUR as my manager Angie would say lol. So much has been going on and it's just really amazing to know that if nothing else I have him in my life, he's such a bright spot in my life. He's a typical guy, and he makes mistakes, but I do too. I also love knowing that he really wants to be with me for forever. That blows my mind sometimes. I really wonder what I did to deserve him. With all the bad in my life I'm just thankful that he's the good. And it's not just him, it's his amazing Mama too. I know that most girlfriends have a very antagonistic relationship with their boyfriends mom but for some reason me and her don't, and I'm really thankful for that as well. I just have so much to be thankful for!!! :D

Your Arms Feel Like Home- to the Mister :]

I think i've walked too close to love
And now i'm falling in
Theres so many things this weary soul can't take
Maybe you just caught me by surprise
The first time that i looked into your eyes

You really did suprise me when we first got back together. I thought I had just said yes to what we had before, but now I know differently. We are SO different from before...we're stronger...happier...so much stronger in our feelings that it makes what we had before (what we thought was serious) seem so childish. :)

There's a life inside of me
That i can feel again
It's the only thing that takes me
Where i've never been
I don't care if i lost everything that i have known
It don't matter where i lay my head tonight
Your arms feel like home
Feel like home

I feel happy when I think of you (most of the time...silly boy :) ) and I feel even happier when I think of what our future has in store for us. If you decide to stay in and become a lifer then that's your decision and I will support you 100%. It doesn't matter where this life takes us, as long as I can lay down in your arms when I go to sleep at night (eventually..after school and junk) I'm home.

This life aint the fairy tale we both thought it would be
But i can see your smiling face as it's staring back at me
I know we both see these changes now

Well we aren't perfect that's for sure. We've had our share of troubles this time around. We've both made some pretty stupid decisions. But...in the end we've always made the right ones to fix it all. You smile, it's infectious. It makes me want to grin right back, even when I'm horribly mad at you. When you're not here and I get aggravated for some reason your smile just pops into my head and it all just melts away. We've both realized that there are changes that have happened in each other, and I can't wait to explore those in you.

I can't wait til you come home and I can run into your arms and never let go!

Poem Written by a Marine to his dad

So I got this in an email, and there is no telling how accurate it is but I thought it was a wonderful poem, and I had to share it. The author's name is at the bottom in bold.

THE MARINE

We all came together,
Both young and old
To fight for our freedom,
To stand and be bold.

In the midst of all evil,
We stand our ground,
And we protect our country
From all terror around.

Peace and not war,
Is what some people say.
But I'll give my life,
So you can live the American way

I give you the right
To talk of your peace.
To stand in your groups,
and protest in our streets.

But still I fight on,
I don't fuss, I don't whine..
I'm just one of the people!
Who is doing your time.

I'm harder than nails,
Stronger than any machine.
I'm the immortal soldier,
I'm a U.S. MARINE!

So stand in my shoes,
And leave from your home.
Fight for the people who hate you,
With the protests they've shown.
Fight for the stranger,
Fight for the young.
So they all may have,
The greatest freedom you've won

Fight for the sick,
Fight for the poor
Fight for the cripple,
Who lives next door.

But when your time comes,
Do what I've done.
For if you stand up for freedom,
You'll stand when the fight's done

By: Corporal
Aaron M. Gilbert, US Marine Corps
USS SAIPAN, PERSIAN GULF

My Favorite Summer Memory

So I goofed and forgot to include this in my initial entry for Confessions of a Sailor's Wife giveaway....ooops...

My Favorite Summer Memory...

is Big Ridge State Park. This place will always be one of my most cherished memories, simply for the fact that it's where I had the most fun in my first 10 years. I would get out of school on Friday and meet up with my Aunt Melissa that night and would spend entire weekends on the lake with her. I can remember feeling so special because she was the head lifeguard for the park, and I thought that was the most awesoem thing EVER. :D

During summer I would spend weeks with her, and basically lived with her for a while. My older cousins Elissa and Chris would actually hang out with me and it was so much fun. Just getting to spend so much time with that side of my family always made my day. I can remember hanging out in the guard shack with my cousins and the older lifeguards, and let me tell you, I felt like the coolest kid ever. I can remember being like 5 and one of the lifeguards would always go down to the water and play with me before the park opened to the public and he would throw me around in the water and it was so much fun...I hate it now but I can't remember his name. I just remember that I wished I had an older brother that was like him! :D

Now that everybody's older, and we've all got out own things going on, we don't get a chance to get together like that. Big Ridge was shut down as a state park about 6 years ago. It's still open to the public but its not the same, the lifeguards aren't there, and its just...not Big Ridge. It's not the same lol.

I know that even when I'm old and can't feed myself I'll always have those memories and they'll always bring me happiness.

I wanna Win

I so wanna win the giveaway at Confessions of a Sailor's Wife! She's giving away some awesome mineral make up.



1st Prize: Will get a Mineral Makeup Kit, which includes:
1 Foundation 5g
1 Finishing Powder 5g
1 Blush 5g
2 Eye Shadows 5g
Tiny Kabuki (1 5/8 inches tall)
You will be able to pick out your own colors and customize it anyway you'd like.




2nd Prize: Will get a Mineral Makeup Tester Kit, which includes:
1 Foundation 5g
1 Finishing Powder 5g
1 Blush 5g OR Eye Shadow 5g
Tiny Kabuki (1 5/8 inches tall)
You will be able to pick out your own colors and customize it anyway you'd like.



3rd Prize: Will get Mineral Makeup Sample Kit, which includes:

Available bagged or in 3 gram jars (no sifters).
Colors and products are of our choice.
We will send you 15 of the gorgeous colors that are in stock.
You may specify Light, Medium or Dark in the notes section if you'd like.
Approx. 1/8 of a teaspoon per color, per sample.

How awesome are those prizes?? You NEED to go check her out, and if you're not a follower, follow her and tell her that I, Marissa, sent you!!!

Tuesday Tag-Along

Happy Tuesday!! And welcome to my blog! Well a little about myself, I'm a senior in high school, I'm dating a Marine (as if you couldn't tell :D), I love love love to meet new people and get to know them. Anything else you wanna know you can find by reading the blog :D

Please Pray.

Please Please pray for One Veterans Battle he is such a strong man, and truly a hero, but he's going through so much shit (excuse my language!) right now and really needs our prayers. And while you're at it check out his wife's blog PTSD:A Caregiver's Perspective she is truly an amazing woman. She's also one of the strongest I've ever heard of. She's truly a lady and a hero. Please pray for her husband right now.

Army Wives (Spoiler Alert!!)

AAHHH!! NOOOO!!! Frank can't be deployed, Denise is about to have a baby! In a freakin month! AND Emmaline needs her dad at home to help her recover, so that means that Michael needs to stay home. ARGH. But last nights episode was amazing and I'm so gonna cry next week :(

Getting to know you!

1. What is YOUR definition of sexy?
Haha well a sense of humor is always good but really its how they treat me.

2. Would you rather clean up puke or change a poopy diaper?
Seriously? I will change diapers ALL day long to avoid puke...

3. Are you an introvert or an extrovert?
Im an introvert until I'm sure of you lol

4. If you had to give up one of your 5 senses for a year..which one would you give up?
Definitely taste, maybe then I could eat the really gross "healthy" things and lose some weight.

5. Cake or Pie?
Sooo not a fair question...but cake!

6. If you could play any character on TV (old or current) who would you play?
Oh man this is hard...but probably Elliot from Scrubs!

7. My favorite website is.....?

Blogger...duh lol

8. The highlight of my day is....?

When I can go to bed!

Well that was emo.

Haha yesterday was bad...and i'm sorry for that! Lol. But I'm better today, and all is good. I wanna know why me and Mister never seem to talk when its a weekend...hmm...

So I'm not gonna be doin a giveaway this month, I need a car just a little too much :(

Oh and I lost a follower :( That makes me sad, why??? Am I boring? Offensive? Omg, am I annoying? Nooooo!!!!!

When I miss him the most...

Is when I really really wanna just hold his hand and lean my head on his shoulder. When I'm just so tired of everything and so fed up with everyone that I wanna scream and I know that he has the words to calm me down and I CAN'T HEAR THEM. Basically now.

I'm a bad blogger...

And I am SO so sorry....but an update on whats happening. I'm not dead, Ipromise, I've just been a little lax on updating my posts :)

Me and Mister talked. And we're good :) A lot of stuff was goin on but we talked about it :)

And I realize how truly lucky I am to have what I have in my life. And the worry I had about him finding the wrong friends? Totally pointless, he's in good hands. I wish I had the words in me to write a post about him...but its all stuff I've said before and I don't wanna bore ya'll. But I'm back and I'm okay, promise!

Tuesday Tag-Along

Just a quick hey to any newbies! Welcome to my blog and feel free to stick around, I love new people :)

64 followers...and 5 comments??

Really? Lol who are all of you??? OMG were you the 1 hiding under the bushes?? Lol really though, how do I have that many followers and at most 5 comments a post? Am I that boring???


But onto a serious subject, I'm having a really hard time wanting to work in this relationship. I love him more than words can say but its hard. Like he had a 96 this weekend and I didn't talk to him. At all. Not that I didn't try mind you. I just feel like he's getting more and more caught up in his life in California and I'm becoming less and less a part of it. Idk, have any of ya'll ever felt this way?

Getting to know you!

1. What do you look forward to the most on the 4th of July?
The songs on the radio, I'm a sucker for patriotic songs. My favorite is Courtesy of the Red White and Blue by Toby Keith

2. Are you a hugger?
Most definitely!! I love hugging, idk why though

3. What is your favorite BBQ'd food?
Ribs!! They're so yummy

4. Do you like to watch parades?
Sometimes

5. Who has stinkier farts..boys or girls?
Well my sisters beat anybody else's that I've ever smelled, but she's special lol.

6. Vampires or Werewolves?
Werewolves, have you see how hot Jacob is??

7. Do you read your horoscope?
Occassionally....lol

8. What is your favorite flavor of ice cream?
Either Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough or Birthday Cake they're both YUMMY!