New Page(s)

So I've seen a few spouses doing pages for different things, and I thought that I would do something a little different. Coming soon are different pages of poems, songs, and links for military spouses. I think that some of these are just so beautifully written, and I think that we all enjoy reading them. So I'm gonna do pages for the different branches: USMC, Army, Air Force, Coast Guard, Navy, National Guard, are there any I'm leaving out? If I am please let me know and I'll be adding them!!!

45 Days

He's leaving for 45 days for some training. 45 days. That's the longest we've gone without talking to each other. I think I'm going to go crazy. I know it's nothing next to deployments some have gone through. But this is the longest we've gone without talking since...well since we were broken up to be honest. Even in bootcamp there were letters. Now there's...nothing. Dead air for 45 days. No more "Goodnight I love you" or "lol" conversations. I'll even miss little arguments. How sad is that? I was going to send him a care package but we're leaving Monday to go on vacation so there's no time for me to get one done, and actually have it look good and be homemade. I'm not gonna send him some store bought cookies...no. I'm gonna spend 45 days on this carepackage, I've already got some ideas cooking up.

I'm thinking about 45 days while you were gone, maybe like daily pics of what goes on while he's gone? I mean, he's gonna miss so much. (Does anybody else notice the irony? He's gonna miss my first an21st.d last day of school) And I have a feeling so much is gonna happen.I will be HIGHLY upset with the USMC if they keep him longer. Which knowing them they probably will. Sad though because I want his carepackage to be waiting on him when he gets back, kind of like a welcome back kind of thing. Idk, ya'll have done em more than I have, do you have any ideas I could use? I want it to be good, especially for my first one to him.

On a different note, I've had people asking how we are, and I realize I haven't done a post about him in a while...oops lol. We're good, he's good. He forgets to text and call back, he gets busy, we fight, BUT at the end of the day we're good. I have to realize that things aren't always his fault, and he can't help some things. As long as I hear I love you at the end of the day I'm good.

I have to admit, I pulled a bitch move yesterday. He called and I missed it and tried to call him back and he texted me saying hold on I'm in chow don't try yet and I said Lol wasn't gonna. And...wow that was just mean. When you know you were mean...wow. Kinda makes it sound like I don't wanna talk to him, which is completely untrue. I kicked myself for missing that call...and it was just weird for the rest of the day. Wonder what today will bring...gotta go pack and stuff

My 3rd Award!!!

I received this award from Chelsey @

I'll be seeing you Check her out, I want her shoes, her cat, and her and her hubby are so cute together!

I also received it from Nicole @

The Sweet Life of Semper Fi her blog is awesome, and her and her Marine make an adorable couple! (she's also engaged so major congrats on that!)

And also Anna @ Shotimes and Dog Tags I kind of want to be her when I grow up...she has so much love in her life!! Her and her Marine were high school sweethearts, and they give me hope for me and my Mister

The rules for this award are:

1. Thank and link back to the person that gave you the award.

2. Share 7 things about yourself.

3. Pass the award to 9 fellow bloggers that inspire you.

4. Let them know about the award.

So, 7 things about myself:

1. I have this secret goofy side, that lets me have random FB convos with my friends in which we just yell random things at each other...yes we are freaks! :)

2. My phone has a bad habit of calling people without my permission...At least thats what I'm gonna say about it.

3. If you didn't already know, I love babies!!!

4. I have been described as very nice. Of course Mister calls me innocent, but idk...I mean I only met that internet person that once okay?? Jk that never happened lol

5. Mister likes to think he is romantic, but I"m the one who remembers the dates thank you very much...

6. Last night I couldn't sleep and really just wanted him there so I could lay my head on his chest and listen to his heartbeat...that sounds awesome right now.

7. I am easily guilt tripped...

Well I'm gonna break the rules because I can't think of 9 people so...lol

Adrie's Corner This girl is truly and Angel! She's also part of Soldier's Angels, an organization where you can "adopt" soldiers who need people to write home to, well Idk if I'm doing it justice by trying to explain it so just hop on over and let her do it for me!

On the other side

On the other side of the emotional wreck that I've been lately I've realized some important things. I am a good person. Just because some people don't feel a need to have me in their lives anymore does not mean that it's my fault. It's not my fault that they just don't want to put forth effort anymore so...oh well.

I got some advice from a new friend who I hope sticks around for awhile because man is she smart lol. She mentioned that if they want you around then they'll make the effort. You shouldn't have to put forth 100% by yourself. And I have to learn what's worth more to me. Do I realy want to be a part of peoples lives when they don't want me? I mean, really?

I am truly thankful for the people that I have in my life right now, this day, at this moment. I have more love and happiness in my life than I know what to do with, now that I've realized all of this. I have my Marine, and really, what more do I need?

On a happier note, look at this poem that my FB friend Nikki Kelly posted on a pic as a comment:

A marine's girlfriend, what can friends say?

I sit by the phone and wait for it to ring.

Terrified and excited by the news it may bring.

The phone doesn't ring, no cards in the mail. There's no one to help me along this trail.

The wives have support on every post. Where are my friends when I need them the most?

Wonderful advice from friends who don't know, about loving a man and watching him go.

"Quit all that moping, it can't be that bad." They don't understand how I could be so sad. "You have the freedome to do as you choose, so why are you trembling as you watch the news?"

I close my eyes and fight the tears. Then take a deep breath to calm all my fears.

He fights for his country and people in need. To free from hatred and greed.

He fights for their lives, yet no one can understand why I miss his smile and the touch of his hand.

He chose his career and I gave him my heart. To have when together and even apart.

I had no idea what he signed on for. How I long for the day he'll walk through the door.

A Marine's girlfriend, standing tall, a cheerful facade shown to one and all.

Shoulders back and head held high. Refusing to let anyone see me cry.

I'm filled with honor, pride and love. Certainly I am blessed from the heavens above.

I'll find the strength to see it through. For in my heart, my love is true.

I honor the vows I will say, sometime in the future on our wedding day.

Until that day comes, I'll sit here alone. Patiently waiting right next to the phone.

The government called and took him away, but in my heart is where he will stay.

I crawl into my bed and turn out the light. Close my eyes and pray he's alright. For my Marine, too far from home, for I again, sleep alone. ♥

Getting to know you!

If you're new, welcome! And if you're not, well, hope you learn somethin new lol

1. Thong or Granny Panties?
Haha Thongs and boxers

2. If you see a guy with his fly down, do you tell him?
Yes, I'm very opinionated. I dont wanna see that.

3. Spanx or no Spanx?
No Spanx

4. Do you sleep in your sheets?
Lol No, I sleep on top with a quilt

5. What is your favorite Disney character?
Ariel or Jasmine or Pocahontas!!

6. Dream vacation spot?
Okinawa

7. What is your dream job?
Nurse with babies!

8. Who is your hero and why?
My mom, because shes literally the strongest person I know.

Today at work...

So I haven't done a post about work in a while...because frankly its draining to rehash it, but I just had to share about today.

Today at work, a new phrase was invented to talk about people who work at mcdonalds. FT. FT stands for F*** Tard. Thank you Ashley my manager. That just makes us feel so much better about ourselves. Because we didn't already feel like losers since we work at MCDONALDS. *** really i think this is brilliant, I just hate that I'm an FT.

Today at work, we had a steady stream of people from 1230- well idk I left at 430 and it was still strong. I was supposed to be off at 4. Such is life at McDonalds. At least I earned back what I lost for taking a break.

Today at work, the milkshake machine spat at us. Literally it urped on us. And all of the vanilla was yellow. Not WHITE like its supposed to be, but YELLOW. And not a pretty yellow, it was a pee yellow. It wasn't because it was bad, it was because it let too much vanilla flavoring into the line and lets just say it was concentrated.

Today at work I worked front line. Which is where you take the money from people who walk in. Thats all I did. I took money. Smiled. Said good bye. Said good bye again when people stood there and stared at me for not getting their food. Yelled "Can I help anyone???" When nobody moved. And let me tell you, no body moved.

So this was my day...it sucked. But now I'm going to try to forget about it and move on. Try.

Fawk You Friday

So this is fun to do!! It's a little end of the week vent, link up thing so yay!!!!

Fawk you to money problems...if I could take it all away for you Mama I would!

Fawk you heart disease...I miss you so much sometimes Papaw!

Fawk you work. Really, first you take over my life and then you give me no hours, really, MAKE UP YOUR MIND!

Fawk you gas...I have an 1/8 of a tank...and need more....

Fawk you old friendships, I think good riddance is the word here really!!!

Fawk you deployments...I hate thinking about you, because you're soon to take over my life...

Fawk you lady who came into work and got mad because I didn't jump to attention to take your order, you need some happy pills lady!

Updates

So...I'm thinking it's time to let go of some friends. You know the kind of friends who go out with each other without inviting you even though you're supposed to be like the 4 "best friends"? I think it's time to let go on some people in my life. I know that it's going to be really hard for me. I tend to care entirely too much about my friends. But I know that they're making me feel like crap. So I have to do it, as much as I don't want to.
I'm just so tired of caring and then not getting anythng back from it. Ugh just people.

Me and Mister are WONDERFUR as my manager Angie would say lol. So much has been going on and it's just really amazing to know that if nothing else I have him in my life, he's such a bright spot in my life. He's a typical guy, and he makes mistakes, but I do too. I also love knowing that he really wants to be with me for forever. That blows my mind sometimes. I really wonder what I did to deserve him. With all the bad in my life I'm just thankful that he's the good. And it's not just him, it's his amazing Mama too. I know that most girlfriends have a very antagonistic relationship with their boyfriends mom but for some reason me and her don't, and I'm really thankful for that as well. I just have so much to be thankful for!!! :D

Your Arms Feel Like Home- to the Mister :]

I think i've walked too close to love
And now i'm falling in
Theres so many things this weary soul can't take
Maybe you just caught me by surprise
The first time that i looked into your eyes

You really did suprise me when we first got back together. I thought I had just said yes to what we had before, but now I know differently. We are SO different from before...we're stronger...happier...so much stronger in our feelings that it makes what we had before (what we thought was serious) seem so childish. :)

There's a life inside of me
That i can feel again
It's the only thing that takes me
Where i've never been
I don't care if i lost everything that i have known
It don't matter where i lay my head tonight
Your arms feel like home
Feel like home

I feel happy when I think of you (most of the time...silly boy :) ) and I feel even happier when I think of what our future has in store for us. If you decide to stay in and become a lifer then that's your decision and I will support you 100%. It doesn't matter where this life takes us, as long as I can lay down in your arms when I go to sleep at night (eventually..after school and junk) I'm home.

This life aint the fairy tale we both thought it would be
But i can see your smiling face as it's staring back at me
I know we both see these changes now

Well we aren't perfect that's for sure. We've had our share of troubles this time around. We've both made some pretty stupid decisions. But...in the end we've always made the right ones to fix it all. You smile, it's infectious. It makes me want to grin right back, even when I'm horribly mad at you. When you're not here and I get aggravated for some reason your smile just pops into my head and it all just melts away. We've both realized that there are changes that have happened in each other, and I can't wait to explore those in you.

I can't wait til you come home and I can run into your arms and never let go!

Poem Written by a Marine to his dad

So I got this in an email, and there is no telling how accurate it is but I thought it was a wonderful poem, and I had to share it. The author's name is at the bottom in bold.

THE MARINE

We all came together,
Both young and old
To fight for our freedom,
To stand and be bold.

In the midst of all evil,
We stand our ground,
And we protect our country
From all terror around.

Peace and not war,
Is what some people say.
But I'll give my life,
So you can live the American way

I give you the right
To talk of your peace.
To stand in your groups,
and protest in our streets.

But still I fight on,
I don't fuss, I don't whine..
I'm just one of the people!
Who is doing your time.

I'm harder than nails,
Stronger than any machine.
I'm the immortal soldier,
I'm a U.S. MARINE!

So stand in my shoes,
And leave from your home.
Fight for the people who hate you,
With the protests they've shown.
Fight for the stranger,
Fight for the young.
So they all may have,
The greatest freedom you've won

Fight for the sick,
Fight for the poor
Fight for the cripple,
Who lives next door.

But when your time comes,
Do what I've done.
For if you stand up for freedom,
You'll stand when the fight's done

By: Corporal
Aaron M. Gilbert, US Marine Corps
USS SAIPAN, PERSIAN GULF

My Favorite Summer Memory

So I goofed and forgot to include this in my initial entry for Confessions of a Sailor's Wife giveaway....ooops...

My Favorite Summer Memory...

is Big Ridge State Park. This place will always be one of my most cherished memories, simply for the fact that it's where I had the most fun in my first 10 years. I would get out of school on Friday and meet up with my Aunt Melissa that night and would spend entire weekends on the lake with her. I can remember feeling so special because she was the head lifeguard for the park, and I thought that was the most awesoem thing EVER. :D

During summer I would spend weeks with her, and basically lived with her for a while. My older cousins Elissa and Chris would actually hang out with me and it was so much fun. Just getting to spend so much time with that side of my family always made my day. I can remember hanging out in the guard shack with my cousins and the older lifeguards, and let me tell you, I felt like the coolest kid ever. I can remember being like 5 and one of the lifeguards would always go down to the water and play with me before the park opened to the public and he would throw me around in the water and it was so much fun...I hate it now but I can't remember his name. I just remember that I wished I had an older brother that was like him! :D

Now that everybody's older, and we've all got out own things going on, we don't get a chance to get together like that. Big Ridge was shut down as a state park about 6 years ago. It's still open to the public but its not the same, the lifeguards aren't there, and its just...not Big Ridge. It's not the same lol.

I know that even when I'm old and can't feed myself I'll always have those memories and they'll always bring me happiness.

I wanna Win

I so wanna win the giveaway at Confessions of a Sailor's Wife! She's giving away some awesome mineral make up.



1st Prize: Will get a Mineral Makeup Kit, which includes:
1 Foundation 5g
1 Finishing Powder 5g
1 Blush 5g
2 Eye Shadows 5g
Tiny Kabuki (1 5/8 inches tall)
You will be able to pick out your own colors and customize it anyway you'd like.




2nd Prize: Will get a Mineral Makeup Tester Kit, which includes:
1 Foundation 5g
1 Finishing Powder 5g
1 Blush 5g OR Eye Shadow 5g
Tiny Kabuki (1 5/8 inches tall)
You will be able to pick out your own colors and customize it anyway you'd like.



3rd Prize: Will get Mineral Makeup Sample Kit, which includes:

Available bagged or in 3 gram jars (no sifters).
Colors and products are of our choice.
We will send you 15 of the gorgeous colors that are in stock.
You may specify Light, Medium or Dark in the notes section if you'd like.
Approx. 1/8 of a teaspoon per color, per sample.

How awesome are those prizes?? You NEED to go check her out, and if you're not a follower, follow her and tell her that I, Marissa, sent you!!!

Tuesday Tag-Along

Happy Tuesday!! And welcome to my blog! Well a little about myself, I'm a senior in high school, I'm dating a Marine (as if you couldn't tell :D), I love love love to meet new people and get to know them. Anything else you wanna know you can find by reading the blog :D

Please Pray.

Please Please pray for One Veterans Battle he is such a strong man, and truly a hero, but he's going through so much shit (excuse my language!) right now and really needs our prayers. And while you're at it check out his wife's blog PTSD:A Caregiver's Perspective she is truly an amazing woman. She's also one of the strongest I've ever heard of. She's truly a lady and a hero. Please pray for her husband right now.

Army Wives (Spoiler Alert!!)

AAHHH!! NOOOO!!! Frank can't be deployed, Denise is about to have a baby! In a freakin month! AND Emmaline needs her dad at home to help her recover, so that means that Michael needs to stay home. ARGH. But last nights episode was amazing and I'm so gonna cry next week :(

Getting to know you!

1. What is YOUR definition of sexy?
Haha well a sense of humor is always good but really its how they treat me.

2. Would you rather clean up puke or change a poopy diaper?
Seriously? I will change diapers ALL day long to avoid puke...

3. Are you an introvert or an extrovert?
Im an introvert until I'm sure of you lol

4. If you had to give up one of your 5 senses for a year..which one would you give up?
Definitely taste, maybe then I could eat the really gross "healthy" things and lose some weight.

5. Cake or Pie?
Sooo not a fair question...but cake!

6. If you could play any character on TV (old or current) who would you play?
Oh man this is hard...but probably Elliot from Scrubs!

7. My favorite website is.....?

Blogger...duh lol

8. The highlight of my day is....?

When I can go to bed!

Well that was emo.

Haha yesterday was bad...and i'm sorry for that! Lol. But I'm better today, and all is good. I wanna know why me and Mister never seem to talk when its a weekend...hmm...

So I'm not gonna be doin a giveaway this month, I need a car just a little too much :(

Oh and I lost a follower :( That makes me sad, why??? Am I boring? Offensive? Omg, am I annoying? Nooooo!!!!!

When I miss him the most...

Is when I really really wanna just hold his hand and lean my head on his shoulder. When I'm just so tired of everything and so fed up with everyone that I wanna scream and I know that he has the words to calm me down and I CAN'T HEAR THEM. Basically now.

I'm a bad blogger...

And I am SO so sorry....but an update on whats happening. I'm not dead, Ipromise, I've just been a little lax on updating my posts :)

Me and Mister talked. And we're good :) A lot of stuff was goin on but we talked about it :)

And I realize how truly lucky I am to have what I have in my life. And the worry I had about him finding the wrong friends? Totally pointless, he's in good hands. I wish I had the words in me to write a post about him...but its all stuff I've said before and I don't wanna bore ya'll. But I'm back and I'm okay, promise!

Tuesday Tag-Along

Just a quick hey to any newbies! Welcome to my blog and feel free to stick around, I love new people :)

64 followers...and 5 comments??

Really? Lol who are all of you??? OMG were you the 1 hiding under the bushes?? Lol really though, how do I have that many followers and at most 5 comments a post? Am I that boring???


But onto a serious subject, I'm having a really hard time wanting to work in this relationship. I love him more than words can say but its hard. Like he had a 96 this weekend and I didn't talk to him. At all. Not that I didn't try mind you. I just feel like he's getting more and more caught up in his life in California and I'm becoming less and less a part of it. Idk, have any of ya'll ever felt this way?

Getting to know you!

1. What do you look forward to the most on the 4th of July?
The songs on the radio, I'm a sucker for patriotic songs. My favorite is Courtesy of the Red White and Blue by Toby Keith

2. Are you a hugger?
Most definitely!! I love hugging, idk why though

3. What is your favorite BBQ'd food?
Ribs!! They're so yummy

4. Do you like to watch parades?
Sometimes

5. Who has stinkier farts..boys or girls?
Well my sisters beat anybody else's that I've ever smelled, but she's special lol.

6. Vampires or Werewolves?
Werewolves, have you see how hot Jacob is??

7. Do you read your horoscope?
Occassionally....lol

8. What is your favorite flavor of ice cream?
Either Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough or Birthday Cake they're both YUMMY!

See, this is how it happened...

Since I've recently acquired some new followers, well, its mostly been throughout the month but since I'm a slow tard I just now realized it...shh no judging! :) So hey all! If I'm not following you back let me know!

So I thought I would do a post about how me and the Mister met, I haven't actually done a post like this, have i??, and I figured it's a great way for ya'll to get to know me a bit better. It's a lil long...

Okay, now just picture it. I was in 8th grade (lord FOREVER ago.) and I rode the bus with this extremely loud, frankly until I got used to him he was a lil obnoxious, extremely hyper, energetic Sophomore. I read on the way home or talked to my friend Ashley. Yes, I was a nerd kid. I kinda still am! So of course loud-mouth catches my attention. And I notice that he's pretty cute...like I got a crush on him...badly. For the majority of 8th grade year I had this impossible crush on him.

Fast-forward to Freshman year. At the beginning of Freshman year I promised my self that I would talk to him. (Yes I still had a crush on him) So I did. We talked for a few months, we actually got to be pretty good friends, but I got kinda freaked when he started to tell me things like "I'm gonna ask out so and so" I was like uhm...ouch. I was resigned to friend role. Then...I'd had it. I was confused, I mean guys always send off weird vibes to me. I also have no gay-dar, but I digress. I finally had Ashley talk to him for me. It was on a Friday, in November.
I get on the bus that day and he's smug. Like smirks at me and literally crooked his finger at me. I was like UH...what? And he goes "Ashley talked to me" I was like *giggle* "She did?" And so that's how it happened...then. Sadly we broke up that next August, he had moved an hour away and it was just hard. I realize the irony, just stick with me mmk?

Fast-forward again to the beginning of last summer. I haven't talked to him since we broke up, like I was devastated when we did even though it was a mutual, we talked it out and everything, decision. I get an email from him. And another. I finally reply and we start Im'ing back and forth and he calls occassionally. I honestly didn't know how I felt about him. A part of me wanted to be like NO not again. But another bigger part said "Oh you know you still have feelings for him, stop being a tard." One day he tells me that he's going to bootcamp in August. I was Floored. Like WTF floored. But I was happy for him. I said well I hope you have fun and it's what you've always wanted. (Yes I was the bigger person, I always am, at least with him) So we wrote back and forth and we both still had feelings and when he got his 10 day leave we met up and well the rest is history :)

Now he's in California and I'm at home and we're trying our best to make it work!

Six Word Saturday

He gets a 96, woo hoo! (is that 6 words?)

Omg

I did it. I made a button, and it actually worked!!! So....anybody need a button just email me @ mjpeters193@gmail.com and I'd LOVE to make you one!

Button Help

Okay so I've got a picture, and I've got text and everything on it, how do I get the code on a button? Like how do I get it to where you can put it on a blog and use it as a normal button?

It's not weird...

That I have What's My Age Again and All the Small Things as songs that remind me of him...he sent me the lyrics to them when we first started dating freshman year...so really there's sentimental value...He once told me that What's My Age Again is his song! Silly boy.

I realize that I haven't blogged about just him, a post dedicated to him in a while. One of those is coming up, I'm just gonna warn ya! :)

Well there's all my creativity for today, I'm gonna go and see what kinda shenanigans I can get into!

Whew.

So I went through and took his name out of everything. I don't care about mine but I just don't want his name all over the web anymore...if I missed any posts ya'll let me know!

10 Things I've Learned

Well, I'm 17 so I figured I've learned a few things lately? Now, some of these things are strictly a Southern thing, some life experience, some the USMC has taught me, and some I've just come across and realized.

1 ) He may be your boyfriend, fiance, or husband but he belongs to them. End of story.

2) Bless your heart can actually be really insulting!

3) When somebody says a while, it may mean minutes, days, hours. It's all relative.

4) Don't EVER criticize someone's catfish catch.

5) If you see an elderly lady, stop and help her. Don't be a jerk.

6) When you give God your problems everything becomes clear.

7) 3 things you don't admit to not liking: Greens, Cornbread, and coleslaw.

8) The USMC doesn't care about your plans. They actually probably laugh at you behind your back.

9) Not all homeless people are bad. When you get that urge to buy them a meal, do it. They may not say thank you but you know it's the right thing.

10) Friends come and go, so do boyfriends, but when it comes to your family you better not diss em, because they've got your back no matter what you do. They love you.