Book Reviewing

I recently signed up with booksneeze, which is just the most awesome thing ever. You literally get books and you review them, all for free. If you're a bookworm like me, this is a huuuuuge deal!

Christmas in April

Best birthday ever (oh yeah, I'm 20 as of 40 minutes ago)

Easter Bunny turns out to be Channing Tatum

You get the picture.

I cannot wait to post my first book review, on what who knows?? I'll announce it when I get it :)

It's good to be back

I can't believe I haven't blogged in over two months. So much has happened I don't even know where to start. Wil and I broke up Feb 9th. To put it simply he was too much of a pot head and a compulsive liar. Sooo it didn't work out. BUT while we were together something happened.

I was almost a mommy <3 I say almost because at about a month a half along I had a miscarriage. It was awful and horrible but it's okay and I'm okay. It took me a while to come to terms with the fact that I was almost a mother but now that I have I see that everything happens for a reason. Wil and I broke up shortly afterwards, and I'm thankful there isn't a child involved at this point.

I've just been enjoying being single...until I met Ryan :) It's nothing serious, I don't want anything serious again for a long time. I don't NEED anything serious. It's good to be bck <3

It's Over

After two years and 8 days, Bear and I are over. For good this time. I don't regret a single second of our relationship. He taught me how to love, what I needed to receive, and what I needed to give. He will always have an insanely huge part of my heart, and I can't do anything about that. I'm going to delete this blog in a few days, I don't have the heart to right now.

We've been broken up for a week and two days, and he hasn't said a word to me. I had to do it in a Facebook message because due to money issues he still doesn't have a phone. He was supposed to get one December first. It sucks, because I wanted to do it over at least Skype or something, but he never tried to contact me. That's what really ended it for me. I just need a fresh start I guess.

I've already gone down a pant size. Woo and hoo. I miss him. Every day. Every morning I wake up and realize we aren't together anymore it kills me. I know this was my decision. I can't be in a relationship where we don't communicate. Where we don't even talk. And his attitude about this? Enforces my decision.

He told his mom that I don't deserve a conversation and he doesn't wanna talk to me. Can't blame him though.