Finishing up a Meme

Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do? I cry, a lot. I mean who wouldn't get upset about this? I would probably hate myself for a while afterwards as well.

Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life. Applied for a job at McDonalds! Day

23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.

Taken more chances

Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)

Oh boy, Making a playlist for someone....I'm not doing a letter that would take too long. How about a Title and Explanation? This is to Mister I guess. The Warrior Song Hard Corps- This song is the USMC. Point blank, I love the lyrics, they're good get you motivated lyrics, they're lyrics that I've always thought as classically Marine Corps. This is just a special song, the original is The Warrior Song, and its the military in general. Here's the link to both: http://thewarriorsong.com/video.html

Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.

I've thought about this a lot since I had my wreck back in October. I feel like I don't know my reason yet. For all intents and purposes I could have died then and I didn't. I don't know why I'm still here but I'm thankful that I am.

Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?

Yes. Freshman year, and the summer after. I honestly couldn't tell you why. I just felt overwhelmed and wanted it to be over.

Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?

I've been accepted to an amazing Nursing program. I'm not giving that up. And My Mister. He supports me no matter what. We'll figure something out.

Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

Honestly as much as I love children I would be ecstatic to find out I was pregnant. I would tell Mister first, and since I'm so young I would probably wait to talk to him before I told anyone else. If he wouldn't want it, then I can't tell you what would happen.

Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

My lack of filter when speaking. Why not? I insult people without even trying and that's not a good thing.

Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Dear MJ,

You are awesome. You love without restraint, and you don't give up on people. Sometimes that gets you hurt but you just get right back up and keep on going. You know lyrics to more songs than some radio DJ's. You have friends who live across the country and you love them just as much as the friends at home. You miss your Mister, but you only cry when you need to. You don't wallow too often in hurt. You remember things. You brush your teeth for 5 minutes every morning and it shows. Sometimes you share too much but that's what makes people feel close to you. Don't ever stop that. Just learn to filter.

FINALLY

Finally finally finally I heard from him!!!!!!!!! I am over the moon right now. But of course I was in the shower the two minutes he was online...Augh. But I guess that's just my luck. I'm not complaining though. I am so beyond happy. And my 18th birthday is in EXACTLY TWO WEEKS. You can imagine my level of excitement! Thu gs are shaping up around here :)

I dare ya Punk

Back in the days when we were young...when everything was like a loaded gun... Yess I'm in that mood today. I'm in the lose myself in the good ol Puddle of Mudd mood, some Rob Zombie gets thrown in there, I won't mind :) Oh yes...Dragula :)

Haha so I think today is going to be an introspective, little known fact kind of day.

My freshman year I had a punk stage. There. I said it. It's out. I wore all black shirts, blue jeans, and Vans. I love my Vans. They were straight laced, and I can't even skate. I wore dark blue eye make up, heavy liner, and hadn't yet discovered mascara,

THANK GOD.

If I didn't have all of the make up on, I didn't have any on. My hair was long, natural, sometimes it wasn't even brushed. It was just too curly for me to do anything with and it look good. Of course the teachers still liked me, but they were wary of me. My friends were almost all guys. And my best friend? That was a fellow punk girl named E. E and I were best friends, and she just so happened to date Mr's best friend. So it was a match made in Heaven. I listened to some head bangin music, stuff that I don't even like now, much less then. I got into some weird habits, such as not eating, like

uhm

HELLO ITS NECESSARY FOR SURVIVAL RETARD.

And dropped about twenty pounds. That's the only thing I liked about that stage in my life. That and Mr. He was my little punk buddy, wore black beanies, listened to the same stuff as me, only harder rock versions. He called me a punk and I loved it. Really, Rob Zombie brought us together. I was the random girl who he noticed listenin to some hard stuff. Anywho, yeah. That was me, if you can imagine it...sometimes I still have a hard time believing it!